Can't Win

Butterflies

Kim Yi Cheol POV:

My name is Kim Yi Cheol. My nickname is Kimchi. But only my friends, grandmother, teacher, and classmates call me that. I live in Korea.

It was a normal day and I was walking to school. I sat down in my math class on time. I was surprised. Next to me sat a boy with round glasses like me. The seat next to me was at the back of the class. "Hi, I'm Y/N", I said. All my friends tell me that I'm too straightforward.

"Lee Minho", he said.

I smiled and continued my work. Soon we began working on problems. I was genuinely confused. "Minho shii, do you know what this means?", I asked.

"You need to substitute this equation into here. Then you assume this value as x. Then put that in here", he explained, writing on my paper.

"Thanks", I said, as I began solving the rest of the problems. After a few more classes, it was lunch. I went to my table where everyone else was. "Hi guys", I said. "What's he doing here?", I asked Jeongin, as I sat down.

"Minho hyung, will be joining us for lunch. Chan made him", said Jeongin.

"It's getting awkward", I whispered to Jeongin.

We all introduced ourselves. We asked Minho where he's from. He told us how he moved here. Eventually, that's how Minho began sitting at our table. I also could tell that he was not that cold with the people near him. We both became best friends ever since.

"Hey Kimchi", said Minho, as I sat down.

"Did you do the homework for math?", I asked him. He merely nodded. He then yawned and laid his head on my shoulder. I blushed and looked away. Wait, no. Why am I blushing? I tried to cool down my cheeks but it didn't work.

"Is everything okay?", asked Minho, as he looked at me. I blushed even more since he moved his face closer to me.

"Yah everything is fine", I said, I blushed more and looked away. What's wrong with me?

It was soon lunch time and Minho sat next to me. "Hey", he said, as he began to eat his food. I lightly waved. Once we were done, he wrapped his arm around my neck and began talking with Seungmin. I blushed again. "Are you okay?", asked Han. Now all eyes were on me.

"No, I'm fine", I said, as I tried to cover up my blush. I was used to Minho's behavior but I don't get what is different now.

"Are you sure? You can tell me", said Minho, as he looked at me. I blushed even more red. Why is his stare affecting me?

"It's good", I said, as the bell rang. We all went to our next class.

I was sitting in my next class next to Lee Know. He held my hand. "Yah, what are you doing?", I asked. I blushed red.

"I'm holding your hand", he said, as he hid it underneath the desk. I rolled my eyes.

On the way home, I kept thinking. What is wrong with me? Why do I keep blushing? Why does my heart keep jumping near him? I should ask harmeoni.

"Harmeoni", I said, as I entered the house. She was sitting at the dining table eating his food.

"Hello, Kimchi. What happened today?", she asked.

"There's a problem", I began. "You know Minho, right?".

"Your best friend?", she asked.

"Well you know how we regularly hang out and talk right? Well, whenever he approached me or rested his head on my shoulder or talked to me, my heart started beating fast and also my cheeks redden", I told her. "Should I go to the hospital?".

"Congratulations, my Kimchi. You have a crush", she told me.

"What?", I asked.

"Ok, tell me more", said my grandmother

"So whenever I look at his eyes, I get lost in them. Whenever he laughs, he spreads his joy. Whenever he talks, it's like music to my ears. Whenever he approaches me, my knees feel weak and there are a bunch of butterflies flying in my stomach".

"There is where now we can say this. You have a big crush on Minho", said Jisoo. She lives with us. "Don't fight it. By what you told me, I'm glad it happened now and not later".

"Thanks, grandma", I said, smiling. I'm so lovesick. I have the biggest crush on my best friend. This is wrong on so many levels but so right in my heart. His smile and laugh are too much to handle. His smirk is so hot. Gosh, he can't know about all of this.