Can't Win

Without Them

Kim Yi Cheol POV:

I woke up. The thing today was my sister left early with her friends so I had to go to school alone. I entered the school and saw most of it was empty. I placed my backpack in math class. Then I heard screams and claps. I walked over and saw two people kissing. That's when I stopped moving. You know how they say being brave is facing your fears. I clearly did. It was Minho and Minju. Unlike ours, their kiss lasted 30 seconds. My brain told me to stay. My heart told me to run. And I ran all the way onto the rooftop. I sat down and just cried. It was bound to come.

After crying, I soon came back to class. Minju transferred from her math class and sat in my seat. I took the empty seat next to Hyunjin. That seat has had me for 2 years. "Are you alright?", asked Hyunjin.

"Yah. I'm fine", I said.

"Congratulations the Minmin couple", said the teacher, and Hyunjin looked worriedly at me.

"Why aren't you worried?", I asked.

"Well, when you love someone, all you want for them is to be happy", he said.

"Aww, there's a lot to learn from you". I ruffled his head. "Anyway, how's Kkami?".

"Kkami might pass away around somewhere next week", whispered Hyunjin, gazing down. I gave him a big hug. I remembered how much he begged his mom for one.

It was the next class, and Minju and Minho were flirting with each other. Everyone else thought it was cute but Jisoo and I were the only ones who weren't big fans. "Why aren't you telling him how you feel again?", asked Jisoo.

"One because he's already dating someone. 2. He looks at me like a younger brother. 3. I just want him to be happy", I said, doing my job. I quickly left not wanting to see anymore.

"You know. This is normal. Before I dated Jin, Jin used to date Irene", said Jisoo. "So this must have been what I've been through, I guess? I didn't know. I was busy trying to have fun with my friends".

"That's not a bad idea", I said. "Why don't I go hangout with my friends today? But what if the couple comes?".

"Simple, don't invite them", said Jisoo, as I nodded.

I specifically went to all my friends except Minho and Minju and invited them to go have lunch with them. They all thankfully agreed.

We all met up and began talking. "So, how does it feel?", asked Felix.

"How does that feel?", I asked.

"Supporting your best friend when you have a crush on him when he has a crush on someone else?", asked Changbin.

"I mean I feel sad. But it's the right thing to do", I said. Everyone nodded in agreement.

We all went home. That night I sat on my bed. No matter how much I tried I couldn't make myself forget about him. His smile, laugh, and everything just made my heart flutter. But he has to be with Minju, obviously with perfect timing. It's not her fault. I should have told him. The mall incident still had me stained. Why can't he leave my heart?