Innocence (Ben Bruce)

Chapter 29

(Rachel's P.O.V)

I haven't said a word. I haven't moved in hours. I've been sitting on the couch for five hours straight. I haven't eaten. I haven't made a single facial expression. I didn't want to talk. I didn't want to move. I didn't want to eat. I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to do anything at all. I wasn't depressed. I wasn't sad. I don't know what was wrong with me.

Emily has been pacing around the house for hours. Angel has been sitting in the other couch watching me. They both have tried talking to me they have tried to make me eat. But it never worked. I heard 'second and Sebring' by Of Mice And Men echoing throughout the halls of the house. I was softly banging my head, not on purpose, but I was. My foot was tapping gently against the couch and I was lost in the music

"My love please eat something" Emily said

"I'm not hungry" I replied dryly

"Yes you are. Remember our promise"

My head shot up at her words. The promise. A year ago I had promised her I wouldn't starve myself. And if I did, she would do the same. I didn't want her doing that, I cared more about her than myself.

"Are you really going I bring that up?" I asked softly

"I am" She simply said

I sighed and knew that there was no way to get out of this

"Fine" I sighed

"Thank you" She said with relief in her voice

"I made you half baked cookies" Angel said

I love those things.

He always made them for me when I felt bad. He was the the one that came up with that. Instead of baking cookies for 10 minutes, he would only bake them for 5. It was basically really hot cookie dough. It was the shit.

"And I made you spaghetti" Emily said

They were spoiling me with my favorite foods, they always did that to me. Evil.

"You guys are ju-"

"Perfect, excellent" Emily cut me off

"Flawless, gorgeous" Angel said

I jut laughed. That felt good

"Your smile Is beautiful" They both said in unison. They looked at each other with open mouths

"HIGH FIVE" Emily screamed raising her hand in the air

"WHOOHOO" Angel is slamming his hand against her's

"You guy are such losers" I laughed

"You love it. Lets eat" Angel said picking me up bridal style from the couch.

God, do I love these two

(Ben's P.O.V)

I am so depressed. I can't stop thinking about Rachel. It's all my fault. It was my fault she cut herself, and I didn't even say goodbye. I never meant to hurt her. It was the biggest accident ever. Her insecurities must of gotten to her. I made her feel bad about herself and I hated myself for that.

I've cried more than a thousand times.

I've called her a million times, but she just ignores the call each time. I tried to go over to apologize because the guilt was killing me but Emily just told me to go home and closed the door. I have barely talked to Danny, or Cameron, James, or Sam. I've barely sung or gone out of my house. I feel pointless without her. My heart ached so much. What's happening to me? I know I fancy her, so much. But did I love her?