it was our way! {nana}

part 11.

𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒉?

I slept on it for a few nights, I kept getting calls and messages "where I am" "what's going on with me" "how I'm doing" "why I'm not available".
But I let them call if it was important to them they knew where to ring the bell.

The news kept playing on the TV "Trapnest Star Y/N is OUT?!".
Bullshit what they reported about me in the news and why I'm supposedly out.

They said it was because I became addicted to drugs and the fame got to me.
I was always the most down-to-earth person because I never forgot where I came from.
I didn't have a good childhood, even as a teenager it wasn't easy for me, maybe things changed as I grew up. I hoped.

{Phone Call}
Unknown number.
"Who's there?"
"Hey Y/n it's me Shin, please don't hang up."
"What do you want?"
"Meet me at Nobu's please in 10"
{end}

Ugh i hate that kid.
But maybe it'll be good for me to get out again, I've been hiding at home for days now.

I took a quick warm shower and got ready as quickly as possible, but I definitely couldn't get ready in 10 minutes.
I quickly picked out something to wear and ran to the train.

The outfit:

If the paparazzi is going to take pictures then they should at least I should look hot and not how I look withered as if I haven't showered in 3 years and am devastated.

Luckily I still caught the train, sat down in a free seat and put my headphones in my ear. Music always calmed me down, I was in tune with the music and always felt so connected since I was a little girl.
and they more or less took it away from me. My dream was always to become famous through my music, which I kind of was now, but I felt more comfortable there than ever before in my life and that was when I was with Ren, after I left Ren I didn't thought that I would ever feel like that again but I did with Trapnest, with Naoki, with Takumi...

It was a mistake to fall in love with Takumi especially after I knew what he was like, women were like toys to him, they went in and out of him like his cock was a whorehouse.

but I felt so comfortable with him, maybe it was just because of my daddy issues that the way he was with me was just what I was always craving.
I always thought that it was nothing serious with Ren, but that I just had these feelings towards him because I never had anything like that from a man.
..

I got off the train.

Just as I was about to knock on Nobu's door the door opened and Shin bumped into me.
I felt back a step but Shin held me by the waist.
"Oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for you to fall."

I saw Nobu standing behind him at the door. He looked pitiful, as if there was something he was sorry for.
"Oh, it's alright, nothing happened, hey Nobu"
I smiled at him.
"so shall we go?" Shin asked and stretched out his hand to me.

I nodded and started walking next to him.
..

"Sooo what did you want to talk to me about Shin?"
"we want you with us" I looked at him confused, what did he mean by they want me with them?
He was able to interpret my look well and continued talking
"So we want you in our band" I stopped and couldn't quite understand why. why would they want me in their band? I asked myself 1000 of questions.

"Y/n.. Hello?" he waved his hand in front of my eyes. "Everything okay?" He asked.
I nodded. "but why do you want me in your band?" he shrugged his shoulders "you have to ask Nana". "she had the idea". he continued.
"does hachi know about it?" He nodded.
"She even thought the idea was so cool so she wanted to help Nana recruit you"
"She probably just wants me away from Takumi," I whispered quietly to myself.

Shin looked at me, he clearly understood what I said. but I just kept going as if I had never said anything.
"so what do you say?"
"I don't know man, I don't have a good relationship with Nana and Hachi, Nana is with my ex and Hachi is with my-" I coughed before I spilled the beans.

no one should know how I felt about him.
I was still hoping that it was just little girl crushes and nothing serious. that one day I'd wake up and he'd completely disappeared from my mind.
but who knows.

"Fine kiddo I'll take a look, If it gets too weird for me, I'll go." He laughed as if he knew I would say something like that. Shin knew me well even though we didn't have much to do with each other. but we could still tell each other everything and know that the other person would never tell it. Maybe it was because we were both quite young, but he was like a rock in the surf when I had problems.
"Alright, come with me, we're going to the band"