What could have happend

Chapter 10 -I choose you

Tobias POV

Tris has been in the hospital for a week now, the surgery that Tris needs can be performed by one surgeon in the whole of Chicago and there is a long waiting list so long that she needed to wait another whole week. Her surgery moved up a week though, because the chance of the wound infecting is too high. The hallways here are clean and quiet, nothing like Dauntless. The Dauntless infirmary may be cleaner than most of the compound, but it's a trash dump compared to the infirmary here. I get to the cafeteria of the hospital. It's there for people like me, who aren't erudite, so they don't have to go into the huge dining hall. But it's also for doctors and nurses, so they can eat during a shift. I get some food for me and Tris. Tomorrow she is having surgery so from midnight til the surgery she can't eat anything. I stash a tray with, honestly, I have no idea what I am going to eat...

I knock on Tris' door and walk inside.
"Oehh, you brought food!" She says enthusiastically while licking her lips.
"Yeah, I did, but be careful. I have no idea what it is." I say with a chuckle. I sit next to her on the hospital bed.
"Well, then you have to eat it first to see if it's eatable or not." She says as a matter of fact.
"Fine," I say, "because you have surgery tomorrow, and I love you too much to let you get sick." She looks at me shocked.
"You're going soft." She says with an evil glimpse in her eyes. She knows I hate when I am called soft.
"Yeah, but only for you," I say while planting a soft kiss on her temple. I see in her face that she is melting inside.
"How can you love me?" Oh boy, here we go again. Why does she always do this? She's so sweet and special, and I don't stay with her by default or because there is no one else to choose from. I'd stay with her through thick and thin because I choose her, after every fight and every bump in the road, after the moments that are just us and the world around us doesn't exist for a while.  I choose her. And that's when I realized.

Tris POV

He just sits here, thinking. After a while, he says, "I choose you, I choose to love you, I choose to stay at your side through thick and thin. I don't stay with you by default or because there is no one else to choose from. I choose you because you are you. And if I could change anything about you or about the things we have gone through, I wouldn't change a single thing." I'm in tears. Does he really love me that much? To choose to stay with me? When I think about it if I had the chance to choose him or leave him. I would choose him over and over again. I had never thought that he could love me as much as I love him. It feels impossible, but it also feels impossible to love him more than I already do, and every day, I somehow love him more than I did the day before. I hug him tight as if he would vanish into thin air if I didn't hold on tight enough.

Cara POV

My shift just ended, and I walk through the hallways of the hospital. When I walk past Tris' room, I peek inside. What I see there melts my heart. Four is sitting with Tris on her hospital bed. And they're just talking. And sometimes, just sitting there and thinking he says something that makes her eyes get all teary and her expression is full of love and realization. That book on body language is paying off I think. After a few moments of just sitting there, she pulls Four in for a hug. I didn't know Four had such a soft side that any Dauntless could have a soft side. They always seem so, so rude and harsh. Sometimes I forget they are human, I mean, it seems harsh to forget that, but seeing a dauntless being soft makes them a little more human. Like they have feelings and aren't always those strong, emotionless adrenaline junkies. I walk to my apartment, thinking that stiffs aren't that bad, I suppose. And that Caleb guy seems nice, sweet even. Maybe I should go and talk to him if I see him. To get to know him more. Because of Four, I realized that when you judge someone when you don't know them, you are often wrong. Because you don't have what it takes to judge. We are all the same in the end, we all make mistakes and we all mess up in some way at some point. So maybe Caleb would give me a chance to get to know him, maybe.

Caleb POV

I sit on my bed thinking about the last few weeks the last two months even. I have been reading and learning new things whenever I want. In abnegation, I always needed to hide my books because just reading for knowledge or pleasure is self-indulgent. I have been loving being an erudite. I saw Beatrice a few times last week, she was shot, shot! Why did my little sis need to suffer? And she calls that bear of a guy, probably that dauntless prodigy she talked about on the phone, her boyfriend. She is way too young to have a boyfriend! Calm down Caleb, it's her life. If she wants to have a boyfriend, fine, but if he hurts her I'm going to do something about it. The face of her boyfriend looked oddly familiar like I had seen him many times in abnegation. I'll have to ask him about it. At this moment I decide to try and be nice to her boyfriend until he decides to break up with her, I hope he won't but with those dauntless, you never know.

Tris has a very nice nurse, when I spoke with her, Four, and Beatrice I noticed her right away. Cara I think was her name, she stands out. Her eyes lit up the room. I am lucky to be in erudite, there are a lot of women around my age, I hope someday I can call one of them my girlfriend, and maybe further in the future I hope I may even have a wife. But for now, I can only imagine it, most erudites don't date until they are at least 25 and they think having kids at the age of 30 is stupid. I have to focus on learning and on my job, most of the time I am a physiotherapist to help people get back on their feet, literally. I mostly help people who couldn't stand for a long while to regain muscle in their legs or people who can't walk anymore learn to walk again. The gist of my job is helping people so they can walk again. I wonder if Beatrice would become my patient. It would give us a chance to reconnect with each other. And I have another job, the other half of my time I work as a faction ambassador. Someone messed up their job big time so now he or she needs to run the complaints desk, honestly, I'm quite relieved to not have to do those shifts anymore, they were long and tiring and I like the jobs I do now a million times better. I decide to go to bed because I want to talk to that boyfriend of Beatrice before work, so I need to wake up early.

Hey everyone! I was feeling kinda guilty I hadn't posted for longer than I said so I wanted to make it up to you all. So here is another chapter! I hope you enjoyed it I hope to update a little more often but no promises.

Be brave,

- M