Tris pov
I wake up with a pounding headache, it feels like a hangover but like ten times worse. I wriggle out of Tobias' grip when I feel bile rising in my throat. I hurl my previous meals into the toilet and soon I feel a hand pulling my hair back and another stroke my back. When I have emptied my whole stomach I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand and lean back with my back against the bathtub. Tobias sits down next to me and pulls me to his side.
"I'm gonna kill that...." I mumble
"Please don't do anything you'll regret and don't get into a physical fight either because we don't need a Christina with a broken nose." How can he be joking about this? I'm serious, if she wasn't my best friend I would have killed her by now. Because she's my best friend I will only give her a few bruises and maybe a broken nose. I get up and brush my teeth to get the awful taste out of my mouth.
Then I get dressed in leggings and a loose tank top before storming out of the door towards Christina. In pure rage, I bang on her door and when she opens it my fist connects with her jaw and with her nose. When I hit her nose I hear a satisfying crack. I turn around and run away. Away from what I've done, I regretted it instantly. I run til my legs burn like fire and I find myself by the spot in the chasm. I lean my back against the wall and slide down so I'm sitting with my back against the wall and my knees hugged against my chest. A tear slips down my cheek and soon I am full-on sobbing. I hear someone walking towards me I don't bother looking up, already knowing who it is. He sits down next to me, wraps his arms around me, and strokes my hair. I lean into him as I continue to sob, finding some comfort in his presence but not enough to calm me down. We sit there for what feels like an eternity. When my vision clears and the last tears slip down my face I look up at his face and lean my head against his chest. After a while I'm tracing patterns on his chest, just being in each other's presence when I notice that he has a little box in his pocket. I look at him with a questioning look.
"What's in your pocket?" I ask innocently
"A little something, for an important person"
Oh, so it's not for me I guess.
"Don't look so disappointed" he says while he places his pointer fingers on the corners of my mouth. Forcing my mouth into a shape that's supposed to look like a smile it probably looks as ridiculous as it feels. It makes me laugh. He always makes me laugh. This feeling of happiness that I have now feels like it's not supposed to last and it makes me feel like he will leave me. I mean he could leave me.
"Tris" His voice draws me back into reality
"Yeah," I say looking down at my lap
"Tris, look at me" he moved in front of me instead of next to me. When I look up I see him on one knee with a little ringbox in the palm of his hand.
"Tris, I know we are way too young to get married, but I love you and I never want to leave you. No scrap that I will never, ever, leave you. I promise that I will someday put two other rings onto your fingers and I promise you that I will love you and stay faithful to you for as long as I live. Tris as a sign of this promise, I want to give you this ring. This is a ring I only want to give to the most important person in my life, to the person whom I shall love forever. Tris, will you promise to one day, someday in the future marry me?" I still sit there, the waterfall of tears that I thought was empty rolls down my face again.
"You're really saying that I'm the most Important person in your life?"
"Really," he says softly lifting my chin up so I look at him "I've got nothing else to live for." He pulls his hand back and the ghost of his finger still lingers there. He cups my cheek with his big hand and leans in to kiss me, and I meet him in the middle.
He makes me forget, forget everything. He makes my problems disappear even if it's just for a moment. He makes me complete and I could never imagine leaving him, and now I can't even see him leaving. He loves me and I love him, and that is enough. Even if it's not enough for others, it is for us. I always thought forever was after this life. But it seems like we have our own forever that we're already living. He may not be perfect, but he is for me. We may not be perfect, we may have our flaws. But feeling like you're already living eternity even if it's only when he kisses me or even something as little as touching me. Those are the moments when the earth stops spinning, that time stands still. It may not seem like much but it is enough, more than enough for us to live our little eternity.
When he pulls away he's still holding the ring box. I open the lid and am greeted with a stunning ring. A ring that has a pointy side but the other side of the ring is smooth and round and it couldn't hurt a fly. It reminds me of Tobias, the diamonds shining like his eyes. Lighting up and reflecting the light, reflecting the happiness I feel right now. He picks up the ring and takes my hand. Carefully he slides the simple but extravagant band onto my finger, it fits perfectly. This couldn't be more perfect. When I walk out of the chasm, I see Christina and Will walking towards us and when I look at her nose I see it's in a little nose cast thingy.
"Tris, thank God you're okay!" she exclaims, "I was so worried after you ran away. I was furious at first but then Will told me what I had done yesterday and that I practically force-fed you the amity bread. I am so so so sorry, I wasn't myself on that serum but I know that is no excuse will you forgive me?"
"The question is can you forgive me? I did the worst thing I could've possibly done, I mean look at your nose!" I feel the tears hot behind my eyes. "Of course I forgive you. But can you forgive me?" I say, a tear rolling down my cheek again. "Because if I were you I know I probably couldn't. Think about it" I say walking past her, not being able to look at her any longer. Not being able to keep back the flood of guilt washing over me. Not being able to do anything except run away like a coward would do. I'm a coward, the worst thing you can be here in Dauntless.
Hey everyone! I'm such a pansycake I had tears in my eyes writing this just feeling so like Tris when she feels unworthy and unimportant but yeah had to do that sorry. I hope I didn't upset most of you, the next chapter is going to be better! The song I put at the top reminded me so much of Fourtris! So I thought with the promise ring it was fitting to add it to the chapter. The promise ring is the picture above the chapter. But anyway I just finished editing like the 28th chapter(that was supposed to be the 6th chapter but I had some really fun ideas if I say myself(this were the previous 19 chapters or whatever XD)). I'll keep some chapters unposted for maybe a few weeks just so I can perfect the chapters to my liking or if I come across a good idea I can fit it easier in the story. And just so you know I'm not finished yet... Probably won't be for like 30 chaps but we'll see. Love you guys!
Be brave,
-M
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