What could have happend

Chapter 7 - How and why?

Tobias Pov

It is dinner time, and Tris and I walk to the cafeteria in silence. It's a comfortable silence, a silence that feels like being wrapped in a blanket. When we come closer to the cafeteria and into the busier hallways, that silence is broken by the enthusiastic yells and chatter from other dauntless. We walk into the cafeteria. We step into the line for food, and the line moves slowly, which gives us time to chat about everything and anything. 

"I spoke to Caleb today," Tris suddenly says. 

"What? How? I mean, it's kinda forbidden faction before blood and all, " I ask, confused. 

"Yeah, but he works the help desk from time to time. There was a problem with the cleaning supplies. So I called the help desk of Erudite and suddenly I was talking to him. We talked a bit about how it is going in our new factions, and I told him I have a boyfriend..." her voice fades at the end. She told her erudite brother about me? That couldn't have gotten over well with him.

"What did he say?" I ask. 

"He told me about how he had seen on the news that Christmas is being celebrated by all the factions this year. And how you can travel to meet family on Christmas. He said he would like to meet you if you haven't already broken up with me at that time." She spits the words like its venom. 

"That son of a-," I mutter under my breath till she interrupts me. "With that language, it is going to go over well." Sarcasm dripping from her voice. 

"I would never ever, even if my life would depend on it, break up with you." I say in the softest yet most serious voice I can manage now with the rage running through my veins. He doesn't even know me! 

"I know, I could never break up with you either, I love you." Her soft voice filling my ears. We're at the front of the line, so we both pick up a tray and stack it with food. At least, Tris stacks her tray with food. I stack mine with a hamburger and three slices of Dauntless cake. Dauntless cake isn't food. Calling it food would be the same thing as calling paper a tree. No, the only thing you can call Dauntless cake is eatable heaven.

When we have a full tray of food, we walk to the table we and our friends always sit at. We sit down and eat our meals in silence. I still can't believe that Caleb could hate me so much when he hasn't even met me! I hear a voice behind me, and I instantly drop my fork, which clatters on the ground. "Can I sit here?". The voice says. I stand up and turn around only to stand there startled. No, it can't be. There is no possibility it's him. But he looks like him, he smells like him, he talks like him. I feel my eyes get foggy, but push the emotion away. I can't cry here, in the cafeteria where everyone can see me. Now, anger slowly begins boiling the blood in my veins. I mourned him! I mourned him! He was my best friend and he faked his death! The rage blinds and deafnens me, I can't see clearly, and I can't hear clearly. At least it's not that I can't it's that I won't. I am wrong, I don't want to see or hear nothing, I feel her soft hands wrap around me, and I see only her, I feel only her, I want to see her, and I want to hear her. She's the only one I'll ever want. She's my first, and I want her to be my last. Im pulled out of my thoughts when she whispers in my ear, "I love you, and i really do want to hold you like this forever but I don't think Uriah, Marlene, Lynn, Chris, Will, Zeke and Shauna can't not interrupt this much longer."

I sigh and open my eyes, which I didn't even know that I closed. I look into her eyes and melt on the inside. What did I ever do to deserve such a beautiful woman? Without even looking if he's still standing there, I sit down.
When i look at Uriah and Marlene, I see them look at each other in a way that I haven't seen them look at each other before. But I recognize the feeling. The feeling when Tris looks into my eyes. "Hey guys," Uriah shouts, "me and Mar wanted to share something with you. We kinda like each other for a while now, and we started dating like a month ago." There is cheering all around the table, and of course, Zeke needs to climb on top of the table and yell through the whole cafeteria."My little bro finally got himself a girl!!" There is a little cheer going through the cafeteria, but it dies out as soon as it came.