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it's been 2 more months.. india is now 7 months pregnant in a coma..
i miss my best friend so much
everything is different without her , everything changed.
i cry every fucking day. wondering what life would be like if i had told her about the text sooner..
if we never let her go outside
if we kept drea away from her..
i think about it all everyday. india couldn't have the perfect pregnancy she dreamed of
now her and my nephew are fighting for their lives..
she barley got to make it through thanksgiving, now she missed christmas and new years
and khari is suffering the most.
i feel so horrible no matter what we say or do he's hurting. it's like he lost everything in one day.
and the only thing we have left to remember her is prince..
she didn't get to have her baby shower.. even tho she was right about having a boy.
the whole time
Khari decided he would name him Loyal being that was the name india picked out before hand
i know evb is going through hell
but all i want is my best friend.. i thought crying
i broke down i couldn't anymore
"mommy you okay?"jay jay came in asking me
i nodded wiping my eyes " mommy's okay.. you okay pretty girl?" i asked
she smiled " yes me okay! me wan see tt" she jumped up and down
and that's what broke my heart the worst.
my daughter asking for her 'tt' everyday knowing she can't see her..
" aye baby.. let me talk to you" meer walked in picking up jay jay placing her next to me as he hugged me
he kissed my forehead " you know i love you mama?"
i nodded "i love you more baby"
" they uhh .. they giving her week if she don't wake up.. they um pulling the plug.."
my heart broke until a million pieces..
i cried and i cried and i cried.
i didn't know how to feel what to feel.i can't live without india i did 3 months god what did i do to deserve this i need her i need my best friend... it made me think of us being able to grow together and i mean really grow from middle school through graduation.. that's really my dawg i can't lose her
