Sheltered- Bellamy Blake

Part Four

It's been around two months since Bellamy and I got engaged, and the novelty of being engaged has worn off. It just feels like we are a normal couple again, with jobs, nothing special. The only thing out of the ordinary is that I have had this stupid flu for the past three days. My stomach is always super upset, but typically in the morning. I am usually fine by the time I go to work, but it has definitely been stressing me and Bellamy out. This morning, Bell didn't even go to work so he could rub my back as I dumped my guts into the toilet.

He suggested I go and have Abby Griffin, one of the doctors on the ark, do a check-up on me to make sure there is nothing too serious going on. I basically had to kick Bellamy in the butt to make him let me go alone. I didn't need my fiance to see me poked and prodded.

"Hi Elle, how are you doing? How do you like being engaged?"

"Well, Bellamy and I are great. The past year and a half has been pretty rough, but something really incredible came out of it, so I guess I couldn't ask for anything else."

"I am so glad to hear that. I remember when Jake and I first got engaged, what a feeling. Anyway, what brings you in today?"

"Well, I have been having this really weird flu, where it only happens in the morning, and I am constantly throwing up, but by the time I need to leave for work , I feel fine. Bell and I just wanted to make sure everything was okay."

"Well, it was a good idea coming in. I'd like to do a little bit of bloodwork to get started, okay?"

Abby took three vials of my blood, and then had me sit and wait in a patient room for a few hours until the results came back. Then, she walked through the door with a clipboard in her hand, and a facial expression I couldn't read.

"So, I have your results back."

"What is it, Abby? Your face is kind of scaring me."

"No, trust me. This is going to be good news." Good news? How can the reason I am sick be good news?

"So, what is it?"

"Ellie, you're pregnant." Holy shit.

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Holy shit has been the only word that wants to spill from my mouth for the past twenty five minutes. I sat and started at Abby, before she sent me home with some vitamins and some ice packs. I walk through the door to our quarters with a blank face. I sit at the table, staring at the prenatal vitamins in front of me. Bellamy walks in the door, noticing my expression, and rushes to my side.

"Ellie, did something happen?"

"Yeah. Something happened." I looked at him, tears pooling in my eyes. "You got me pregnant you jerk." He looked at me with wide eyes, searching mine for something.

"Holy shit."

"That's what I said!"

"What are we going to do?"

"Well we can't exactly just get rid of it." I said sarcastically.

"I mean, we haven't really talked too much about kids. Do you even want one?"

"I always wanted one, I just didn't expect to be freaking twenty-one."

"I wanted one too." We look at each other, and Bell and I both reach forwards, collapsing into a tight hug.

"We are going to be parents." Bellamy laughs, before he picks me up and spins me around. "Ha! We are going to be parents. Holy crap- I'm going to be a dad."

"Yeah you are!" We laugh as he kisses me, a kiss that turns into a hug, which turns into cuddling on the bed. Bellamy kisses my stomach, his ear resting against it.

"I think I can hear him."

"He's barely anything right now. You can't hear it. And him?"

"Oh yeah, we are having a boy." I smile as my eyelids get too heavy, and fall into a land of dreams.

According to Abby, I am in the middle of the first trimester. So, our little baby is around the size of a large grape. God, pregnancy is so weird. However, Bellamy has been incredible, and I love it so much.

He is finding clothes from all over, and is asking Abby so many questions about what to expect when it comes, and how he can help through the pregnancy. He is going to be the best husband, and an even better dad.

We had my three month ultrasound today, and our baby is now the size of an orange. We also found out that it is a she, not a he. I thought Bellamy might be disappointed, but he can't stop talking about having a baby girl.

We have been seeing Abby for quick check ups, but everything is looking great. I can't wait to meet her.

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Today started great, I woke up next to Bellamy, we had breakfast together, we both went to work. Halfway through my day, Raven came up behind me, and said that I was bleeding. I went straight to Abby, and Raven went and found Bellamy.

"Abby, something is wrong, I'm bleeding." I told her, my voice cracking as tears started to come gushing down my face.

"Okay, I've got you. Just come with me." She guided me to an exam room, and grabbed an ultrasound machine immediately.

Bellamy rushed through the door, right at my side, holding my hand. "Hey, what happened? Raven said you are bleeding?"

"We are just about to find out, Mr. Blake." Abby said. She ran the wand over my stomach, our baby on the screen, but not moving. "I am just going to try more gel." She put more cold gel onto my stomach, yet no heartbeat of movement came.

My heart sank as I realized what had happened.

"Ellie, have you had any cramping or stomach pain recently?"

"Yes, but I thought you said that was just a part of pregnancy?" I was crying now, silently begging that I hadn't killed my baby.

"I am so sorry, but it appears you have miscarried. Your body rejected the pregnancy, this happens. It doesn't mean you can't have a baby, but there is no fetal heartbeat and no signs of movement whatsoever. I am so sorry." Abby excused herself, leaving Bellamy and I all alone. The silence was deafening.

"Hey, everything is going to be okay. We'll figure this out together." Bellamy tried to comfort me.

"I'm so sorry. I killed our baby."

"Hey, this is not your fault." He brings my face to his chest, my tears soaking through his shirt.

I can't believe this.