Ciera Blue

Chapter 15

Ciera's POV

I decided to go to the park. Ever since moving here, I have found a place where I can be alone.

I went to the curly slide and just sat there. My head on my knees.

I kept thinking about how I maybe hurt Ash with my simple reply as thanks. I know you might say i'm just overreacting, but I don't know why i'm scared that I will hurt Ash.

I just keep thinking of how he could like me when I don't even like myself.

Just as I was deep in my thoughts, a farmiliar voice snapped me out of it.

"Oh, sorry. I didn't realize anyone was in here." Ash?

"Ash? Is that you?"

"Ciera?"

"Hi." I faced him and a nervous smile appeared on my face

"What are you doing here?"

"Well I come here to hide and be alone. Maybe do some thinking."

"Oh me too. What are you thinking about?" he said as he sat beside. We were so close together

I couldn't tell him that I came here to think about his reply.

"Uhmm" that was all that escaped my mouth

"Oh it's ok, you don't have to tell me."

I sighed in relief

"Is it that terrible that you don't want to talk about it?" He said smiling. Probably trying to lighten the mood.

"Not really. I just don't want to talk about it." I replied returning the smile.

His smile widened and I looked away trying to hide my red flushed cheeks.

"Uhmm Ciera?"

I looked at him "Yes?" Wow. I only now noticed his hazel eyes.

"About our chat just now on facebook." Oh no. He's gonna ask about my weird reply. I couldn't look at him. I might blush again.

"I didn't mean to alarm you. I was just thinking out loud." I nodded still avoiding his gaze.

"Listen Ciera." He said while holding my chin up so I'd look at him. He leaned closer to my face "I really really like you."

He was getting closer and closer. I squinted and eventually closed my eyes. As my eyes were shut I could feel something soft on my lips.

I opened one eye and saw Ash. Kissing. Me. I didn't move a muscle. I was so shocked. This was my first kiss and I didn't know what to do. I don't know why but I got scared.

After a few seconds he pulled away. I stared at him wide eyed and touched my lips. I then turned around and slid down the slide. I quickly ran home and went straight to my room.

I threw myself on my bed face down. I don't know what's with me and thinking but I do it a lot. Maybe because all those years of silence and I just listened and maybe it made me a life contemplater.

I kept replaying that scene in my head. Even through all the thoughts, my main feeling was happiness.

It was unlike anything I have experienced before. It was new to me but it made me so happy.

I have noticed that Ash is getting cuter by the day. I never noticed him as cute but after the day he told me he liked me, my world has never been the same.

Ash's POV

I kissed her. I just couldn't resist. She is just so adorable.

The kiss lasted a few seconds. I didn't know what her reaction was until I pulled away.Wide eyed, she touched her lips, turned around and slid down the slide.

Ugh. Why can't I control my actions. These spurs are what makes life difficult for me. Why can't I think before I act?

After she left I just sat there and contemplated. I don't know how long I was contemplating. I almost shed a tear at just the thought of her avoiding me because of what I've done.

Luckily, before I cried my eyes out, my phone buzzed alerting me that someone texted.

It was mom. She's telling me to come home for dinner.

I stayed in place for about a minute. I let out a heavy sigh and headed home.

~~~~~~ THE NEXT DAY ~~~~~~

I woke up with this heavy weight on my chest. I did not feel at all refreshed. I felt like I didn't sleep for a week.I couldn't remember why I feel so down.

I headed downstairs and stuffed a few pancakes in my mouth before almost choking on one when I remembered my reason for being sad.

"Oh sweetie. I forgot to ask you." Mom said "How did Ciera like your gift?"

Queue choking sounds

"Oh sweetie. Are you alright?" Mom said while patting my back

"Yeah mom." Cough cough "Just choked on a chocolate chip." I replied while drinking some water.

"Ciera loved her gift. I could tell by her beautiful smile."

Mom looked at me raising a curious eyebrow at me.

"Beautiful smile?"

I mentally slapped myself. I was only thinking about it. I was lucky it was my mom who heard it and not my dad. If it was my dad, he'd give me another one of those 'Becoming a man' talks.

I blushed before replying. "Uhh...yeah. her smile is beautiful."

Mom gave me a knowing look and before she could reply, I kissed her on the cheek and headed to school.

~~~~~~ AT SCHOOL ~~~~~~

I nervously walked through the hallway. I was looking for Ciera. I kept searching but I still couldn't find her.

Then I saw Dani and Ella.

"Hey guys."

"Hey Ash" they both said

"Have you seen Ciera?"

"No. We've actually been looking for her too." Dani replied

"Oh. Ok. If you want we can look for her together."

"Sorry Ash but we are going to meet someone. Maybe later at lunch she might be there at the usual place" Ella replied

"Sure sure no problem."

I waved goodbye. And continued on my search for Ciera.