golden girl | F1

blame game

(tw: mn of crash, injuries, unhealthy eating habits)

c-can i see her?

yeah right this way

n-n fuck oh my god fuck fuck fuck he slid against the wall onto the floor
hand in his hair
Natasha, he exclaimed

Charles couldn't understand why he was crying so much, other than the obvious, but the extent to which the crash was affecting him was way more than he was expecting. He was scared-
he was scared as hell he couldn't lose her, he couldn't believe this was happening and the doctor wasn't willing to disclose anything right then which was only getting him worked up more as to what could've been so bad that the doctor doesn't want to discuss it with anyone but only her and that too when she's vocal.

Charles couldn't bare the sight of her, he felt so much pain looking at her he could only wonder how much more painful it was going to be for her.
It was making his heart break into tiny pieces. The crash kept replaying in his head, the fire, pulling her out, Natashas face, everything just kept on going off again and again.
He could only think if the crash was his fault? If he wouldn't have put pressure on Lewis, then he wouldn't have had put pressure on Natasha. If he wouldn't have tried to get through the slipstream, maybe Natasha wouldn't have turned in a lighting second and maybe she would've had control over the car instead of losing it.

Lewis walked in right then when he found Charles on the floor muttering to himself, 'its all my fault its all because of me-
-two can play the blame game mate, lewis' voice filled the room.
He helped Charles up and somehow out of there, c'mon let's get you hydrated but first go spalsh some water on your face
b-but l-l-lewis na-nat she its my fau-fault i pushed too hard i-i knew i-i lewi-

shhhhh calm down Charles get a hold of yourself
First Thing, it's NOT your fault so you can stop blaming yourself for this Natasha wouldn't want this, don't do this to yourself man. If you're gonna be like this then who's gonna look after her huh kid? If that's how your gonna be then go home because Natasha needs someone strong not a cry baby.
Yes ok well, i am not saying you cannot cry, you can cry because you're scared and worried but not because you have convinced yourself into thinking that this all is your fault understand??

o-oui
bien now calm down breathe and take a minute to think and process everything

And in that very moment Charles hugged Lewis
thank you so much i-i i
it's okay you don't have to
now what did the doctor say did he update you or anything?
she's in a coma don't know when she'll wake up but the doctor doesn't want many people around
oh alright
-and well um her bottom three right ribs are broken, multiple concussions, uh left wrist fracture, right shoulder tendinitis, a small cut on her forehead, some abrasions and some bruises
bruises?
yeah the crash
right that's bad that's really bad
i know i'm scared lewis
Don't be. I know her. That one's a fighter

oh hey um you both seem to be close you have any idea of her parents? need to contact them right, Charles questioned

yeah uh don't worry i've got that covered they won't be able to visit right now maybe in a couple of days her grandmom is in the hospital (a lie) so i told them not to worry and come as soon as possible but her brother is on his way he'll be reaching in like 3-4 hours

oh they've got some bad luck all of these bad things coming at their family at once
i know mate

two days passed

charles you should eat something?
no its ok i'm fine i grabbed a bite earlier
you sure?
yes benedict relax
alright
you should go home and freshen up ben you've been here for a day now
i don't wanna leave you alone
i've got this i'm anyways not moving until she wakes up

hi there didn't quite recognise you?
oh right sorry benedict natashas' brother and you, you must be pierre?
yes
pierre, charles has not been eating well he's even refusing to sleep or go home and rest
oh so that's why he's not been answering his phone
i won't lie i'm worried for your friend mate

oi charles vas tu bien?
pierre...
charles go home mate
no
charles you can't change anything go home get some rest
bloody hell your eyes are red asf when was the last time you slept
i -i -i dont know i dont care Pierre
all i know is Natasha has to wake up
Charles.... i know you really care for her  and are worried we all are believe me but you can't ruin your health like this you need to eat and sleep as well it's been over one day now
go home get some rest i'll stay back with her brother
NO, he whisper shouted but more like shouted
i am tired of everyone telling me to go home to eat to sleep to drink well fuck you because I.AM.NOT.GOING.HOME.ALONE.
NOT.UNTIL.SHE.WAKES.UP.
relax realx buddy hey come here he hugged him and could feel his t shirt getting wet
alright don't go home but can i atleast get something for you will you eat?
he looked up at pierre's pleading eyes before finally agreeing

3rd person pov

5 days had passed
Charles had started eating but barely
he didn't move an inch from his chair and if he accidentally fell asleep woke up and cursed at himself
Natasha was on his mind 24/7 along with a few other thoughts like why even one of her parent wasn't there yet?where her boyfriend was? why and how did she crash? was it deliberate? why did the crash look suicidal to him? was it planned? did someone mess with her car?
every day a couple of people used to come visit
so far max christian geri alex lando carlos fernando had visited with lewis and pierre visiting constantly and toto along with susie visited because they weren't fully sure if it was even a little bit of lewis' or mercedes' fault
the wolff's stayed around for a while convincing charles to go down and get some fresh air

Charles' pov

it has been 5 days Natasha 5 almost 6 days
the doctor told me that everything is in your hands... they've put you in a medically induced coma and if you don't have the will to live you won't come out of the coma. Natasha this isn't fair why do you not want to come back come back to everything to life to your parents to your friends to racing to to to me
whyyy please wakeup if there's even a tiny chance that you can hear me then please wake up whatever it is that you are trying to avoid we will figure it out together, i'll fix it, i'll always be there with you, i just need you to wake up please
Natasha don't do this to yourself please don't do this
You have to wake up you have to because I haven't told you yet that I love you that I have fallen in love with you madly irrevocably frantically in the most manic way possible and I haven't had the chance to tell you yet so please for the love of god wake up don't do give up don't you dare give up one me cara mia

a/n 1291 words so sorry guys for being absent and leaving you high and dry i was really not well
but in a way it was a cliffhanger wasn't it like you know season 1 part 1
and from here onwards it could be part 2 of season 1 🤭🤭 hehe
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