Undercover!! Kenma x Spy reader

Chapter 7

It was a calm november morning. It's the 2nd november week, time is ticking and the feeling that the sneeze will happen very soon, made me feel sick to the stomach. It was cold and slowly almost all leaves had fallen off the once full trees. The warmth radiating from Kenma made me feel at last peaceful but it wouldn't stay that way too long. It couldn't. 

I notice a dark green bush, still growing in the cool autumn air. A still intact bloodred blooming flower grew out of it. Quite suspicious, I thought. Suddenly my brain was running wild. Is this the flower that Kenma sneezed on in another future!? No, wait, first and foremost— Kenma slightly gasped for air as we walked past the bush. Oh no. I quickely checked my pocket for tissues. Damn it, where is it!? I don't have any time to search any further! It's now or never! 

I jumped on to the bush with the flower in the last second before Kenma could sneeze on it. Well, this is awkward. I wasn't moving and I felt Kenma's gaze on me. He bend down to help me but I quickly moved around. „What are you doing there, (U/N)?" 

„I.. I just fell down, it's alright!", I said. Behind my back, I was grabbing the flower together with it's stem but before he could notice anything, I quickly stood up. I laughed nervously and Kenma smiled back but I never felt dread and sadness get ahold of me so fast. I never thought there would be an emotion, that would feel like my world is about to end. 

„Are you really sure this was the flower?", I asked X for the already 6th time. „Yea. My future self reported that nothing threatening happened the past 2 years. He even forgot the memories of the pandemic he talked about! Science—!!", he screamed and I squeezed one of my eyes shut at his volume. „Sorry about that—" 

Suddenly the boss walked into the hologram and shoved X away. „Congratulations on the succesful mission, Lazurite. We'll start arranging a 'school transfer' so that you can leave as unsuspiciously as you came. Start packing already. Tommorrow will be your last day at that school. We'll wait for you at the headquarters."

 The call abruptly ended. The boss wasn't a woman of many words, like most agents at the organisation. X is a real exception there. Normally, I should have felt proud of myself that I finished yet another mission. But why, why is my heart so heavy again? I wish, it wouldn't had ended so soon. How am I going to explain to Kenma, that I'll leave tomorrow already? How will he react? How am I going to convince myself that this is reality?

This was yet another sleepless night, filled with awake nightmares, that turned out to be the actuality. I tossed and turned. The fact, that I may hurt Kenma breaks my heart. I wanted anything but to hurt him! The only thing my brain could imagine was his face. So delicate and yet, his beautiful features would conture into sadness and dissappointment. It was a scary thought.

Kenma couldn't fall asleep. The thought of confessing his love for (U/N) made his heart beat rapidly. Should he really confess one day? What would be her reaction? Will she accept his feelings and they'd get into a relationship? Would they get even closer or would it just be awkward? They're still highschool, it would definitely get awkward. But the closer he gets to her the less he has the control of his own feelings. The need to get even closer to her. Touch her hand, and just play it down by saying it was an accident. Or just say nothing and let her react first. He'd slap himself. Why would he even think about that?

„Hey, Kenma! Good morning!" I ran up to him the next morning. The make up skills that I had learned over the years for various undercover missions, rescued me today. Even if it was only a night, I never had puffier and darker under eye circles in my life. I was drained. But at least for today! Only for today! I needed to make the best out of today. „Good morning, (U/N)." Kenma greeted me back with a smile.     

Go to school and have a fun time. Go to class and have a great time. Eat lunch together and have a fantastical time. And somewhere inbetween all the good memories...? I will need to tell him that I'll leave. Forever. It made shivers go down my spine. I had beaten criminals, stole secret informations from politicians but something like this was scarier that everything combined? Wow, I really am stupid. Well something way more nerve wrecking would have been if he found out, that (U/N) was just a big fabricated lie. Yeah, there are always worse situations to be in, right?