Undercover!! Kenma x Spy reader

Chapter 16

„You do understand that you are a spy, right?" I nodded embarrassed, as I got scolded by the boss. „This was supposed to be an undercover mission!"

She slammed the newspaper article on the corner of the desk. It was reported of the incident at the renowed university,  in which around 30 beat up men were found on campus. She sighed exasperatedly. „But regardless, good work. Because of you, we are able to make sure that nothing bad will happen in the future."

She allowed me after to leave again. But my heart was still full of unspoken emotions, I couldn't let go off.  It has been about 2 days since the mission had ended and since then, I haven't seen Kenma. But he always lingered in the back of my mind. I was fighting myself to not meet him again. Was it already to late for me to apologize to him? For everything? I mean it's never too late to go apologize, but why? Why did I feel like it was? Too late to make everything right?

Was it even a smart idea to go? Would he even want to meet me again? 

I went to X's offfice, tired and exhausted after the nitpicking of our boss. But not just that, the heart of mine wouldn't stop longing after Kenma. The needles threatened to pierce my heart into million pieces. He must still be at the hospital, right? His injury was pretty bad.  Hope he is better now. What if not? 

„I am back..." 

X lifted his head. A frown appeared on his face when he saw me. His eyes followed me as I sat down onto the nearest chair. I sighed. X looked down to his newest invention. He continued to screw a nut while he said: „Did you meet Kenma since the mission?"

„No." Now it was his turn to sigh tired. He always knew what I was thinking. I sometimes forget it, how easily I can be read. Or maybe it was the despair that made me physically tired aswell? Maybe the blue and slightly swollen cheeks of the fight?

„He must still be at the hospital. Go meet him. You look pathetic right now." Even with the insult thrown at me, the words were meant to give me the last nudge. The longing was unbearable, I needed to talk to Kenma. It was true. I was pathetic. Because of fear, I was unable to meet him? That's one of the worst excuses that I've heard in a while. 

I stood up, newfound motivation in my whole body and mind. The chair fell down and the sound of wood hitting tiles made X look up to me again. 

„I will be on my way."

I walked onto the pavement of the big parking lot infront of the hospital, empty of people. The grey clouds over me indicated rain, but no droplet fell. My heart was beating loud. Was I really this nervous? In an attempt to calm my erratic heart down, I held my hand over my chest. 

My legs stopped to move. Really! I am a spy! Why was not able to get my emotions under control!? I gulped down everything holding me back. This was my last chance to talk to him. I shouldn't miss this oppurtunity. Not now, when it's clear that I am the one at fault. 

First step. The first step on confronting everything I tried to forget. Colourful leaves dancing around in the harsh autumn's breath. Should it calm me down?

Is Kenma even still at the hospital? Maybe he is already out! Maybe X was wrong! Why were these questions surrounding my head out of all times right now, when I was already standing infront of the hospital! Argh, this is bad! 

I hit my head with my wrists as if I could get my head working again, but because of that I failed to notice the familiar guy limping out of the automatic doors. His eyes widen at seeming her standing infront of the hospital. The crutches in his hands aswell as the warning of the doctor to take it slow the next few days were almost forgotten at the sight of her.