Unsteady // kiani ff

Chapter 7

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Will
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I wake up to being alone. No one was in the house but me. Good. Today, I have to go back to England. I don't know how I'm going to tell Jor. I pick up my phone and I see a message from Bee.

Bee ; Will, please come to StarBucks in town. I need to talk to you.

Bee ; Please.

I look at the messages and sigh. What do I have to lose?

Will ; Yeah, be there in a bit.

Damn, I don't know what to expect. I get out of my bed and put on the sloppiest clothes I have. I'm lazy and I have a sixteen hour flight coming. I get my phone and wallet and walk out the door. I decide to walk there because I need to lose some weight that I don't even have. Being anorexic is fun, I was 'diagnosed' with it three years ago.

I walk in the StarBuck's door and see Bee sitting in the corner of the shop looking outside the window. I slowly shuffle to her and she looks at me.

"Will! Uh, you came?" I nod,

"Well, obviously I'm in front of you. We both giggle.

"I want to apologise." Bee says nervously.

"I'm so so so sorry Will. I didn't mean any of those things I said or did to you. I was just jealous you got the guy I was in love with."

"It's fine, it was the past, let's not dwell over that." I say very silently. She smiles and I smile back.

"Well, I better get going Queen Bee." I tell her and start to slowly walk away.

"Bye William Shakes!" She yells after me.

I walk to Jordan's house and knock on the door. He opens it with a smile and let's me in.

"You could have just walked in you know." He giggles, I smile but my smile slowly fades.

"Jor, I need to tell you something." He looks at me a with a worried look.

"W-What is it?"

"I'm moving back to England for two years." I choke out with a single tear falling from my eye.

Jordan looks down and I hear his small little cry come out. I embrace him and he cries on my shoulder.

"W-When do you leave?" Jordan asked.

"T-Today." I say closing my eyes, getting prepared for what will happen.

"What!? Today? No!" He yells out, breaking the hug.

"I'm so sorry Jor. I should of told you sooner! I just couldn't because I'm a fucking whimp and I am worried about everything. My dumb fault." I mumble,

"No, No, Babe don't think that way please. You're perfect in every single way possible. It was just a surprise and I don't want you to go. I don't want you to go." He says.

"Please, don't go." Jordan says very sadly.

"I have to." I say looking away with tears threatening to fall out. Jordan embraces me and we stay like that for a long time.

"M-Maybe I can come with?" Jordan asks. I shake my head no.

"I so wish you could. Too much money and its family issues." I whisper sadly.

"So I have to wait two years to see you again?" I nod.

"I'm sorry Jor." I hug him and he hugs back. Jordan breaks the hug and kisses me on the lips.

"Be safe and never forget about me. Please." Jordan says.

"I could never ever, replace you. Ever." He smiles

"Good."

"Will you help me pack, Jor?" I ask him and he nods with a small smile. I could tell he was about to burst into tears again. I took his wrist and pulled him to my room. I got the suitcase and placed it on the bed. Jordan helped me pack for about two hours. We finally finished after a few tears and hugs. Jordan comes up to me and embraces me. I cuddle into the slightly taller male's chest.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." I whisper.

"It's okay."

"I leave in five hours, Jor." I tell him and he nods and sighs.

"I know, but let's not talk about that, please?" He says with a high 'about to cry' nervous voice.

"Okay, then what do you want to talk about." I sit next to him on the bed.

"How about what happened between you and Bee at town today. What was up with that?" He asks,

"Well, she wanted to apologise for everything. She was only jealous because I had you and she didn't." I say quietly.

"Oh." Jordan said with a loss of words.

"What's wron..." I trail off, I already knew what was wrong. Me. I saw tears drop on Jordan's lap. I pull him into a huge hug.

"Don't cry, please, please don't cry." I say while tears threaten to fall out of my eyes.

"Two years. Two years without you?" Jordan chokes through his cries. I stuff my face into his shoulder and start crying. Why the hell do I do this? We both calm down after a while and I look at the time.

"Three." Jordan closes his eyes at the word.

"Don't remind me." He mumbles. "Sorry."

"It's fine just come here I want you in my arms for the last three hours we have together." I go into his open arms and we cuddle on the bed.

I'm going to miss this so god damn much.

I wonder if he will too..

I kiss a tear on his cheek.

"It'll be okay. I promise." I reassure him,

"I don't think it will." He says very silently.

"Why's that?" I ask,

"You're the only one who can help me. I drink and smoke my sorrows away, I haven't since you came into my life." "

"Don't do it anymore Jor. I will be back in a couple years. It will be like I never left, so don't worry, Okay?" He nods.

"Now come on, we h-have to go to the a-airport." I choke out with tears in my eyes.

I guess this is it.