Unsteady // kiani ff

Chapter 8

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Jordan
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I get to the parking area for the airport to drop off Will.

Fuck.

I don't want him to go for two years, or in that case, ever.

"Jor, I have to get to my terminal." I embrace the small boy and he does the same back.

"I love you so much." I whisper through the tears threatening again.

"I love you too, Jor." I press my lips against his. Two years without this. I don't think I can do it.

"Goodbye Jor."

"Goodbye Will."

He walks off to his terminal and burst. I cry and cry, I just got him, I don't want him to leave. I drive off to Will's empty house. I walk in when I put the key that Will gave me in the knob. I walk to the kitchen and I open the fridge and grab a beer. I said I wouldn't do it anymore, but he isn't here to stop me. I open up the bottle and chug the beer. I felt the burning in my throat while the beer travelled down.

I finished the first beer and I threw it at the wall. The glass shattered everywhere. I grab about six beers and I go upstairs to Will's old room. I sit on his bed and I down another beer. I hear my phone go off. It reads 'Ryan'. I answered immediately, to distract myself and not be alone again.

"Hello?"

"Jordan, can I come over? I really need to talk to you."

"Y-Yeah I'm at Will's place though."

"Okay, I'll meet you there in a bit."

I hang up, shit what did I just get myself into. I run downstairs and put the beers back. I pick up all the glass from the shattered bottle and throw it away. I grab Will's jumper he had left for me and I take the cigarettes out of the jumper pocket and grab one out. I get the lighter and I walk out side and sit on the porch.

I put the cigarette in my mouth and I light it. I smoke the cigarette until I see Ryan walking up to the house. I shove the bud into the ground and throw it in the yard.

"Hey Jordan." Ryan said very quietly and sighed.

"What did you need to talk about Ryan." I ask sternly.

"I love you." He trailed off.

"What?" I ask shocked.

"I love you Jordan Bayani."

"I-I." He kisses me. Fuck it was nice, but I push him back.

"I'm sorry Ryan. I-I'm dating Will." I say while closing my eyes.

"So? He is on a flight to England for two years. It can be just you and me." He said while getting closer to me.

"No, I can't do that to h-" he kisses me again and I allow it. He cups my cheek and we keep kissing. Damn, he was good at this.

"You're fucking hot." Ryan whispered in my ear. The whisper sent chills down my spine. I liked it. He kisses my neck and bites at it, I let out a moan.

"Please, Ryan, I can't." I say out of breath.

"Don't worry, it'll be okay. I promise." He kisses me again and I stand up from the porch.

"Let's just go inside." I take his hand and bring him inside. Ryan sits on the couch and I go to the fridge and grab the beers again. I go to the couch and give him one.

"Y-You want me to?"

"Yes. I know you're fucking craving one."

He rips it open and chugs down the alcohol. I do the same. We start to talk about some random shit and we start giggling like crazy. Beer after beer, giggle after laugh. We got drunk as shit.

"Hey, want to do something even better?" Ryan slurred

"Like?" Ryan pull out drugs of some sort.

"Oh no no I'm good."

"Come on Jordan, just one hit?"

"I-I guess I could just do one?" He hands me a cigarette filled with the random ass drug. I take a puff and a couple hours later, we were high as fuck. I promised Will. Oh well. Ryan and I start to makeout. He lets me put my tongue in his mouth and I explored.

"Fuck me." I whisper in Ryan's ear. He smirks and the rest of the night was a blur. I woke up on the floor with only boxers. I had a huge headache, I got up and ran to the bathroom and puke in the toilet. Fuck I'm hungover. I get up and walk downstairs and see Ryan sleeping on the couch, naked. Damn, he was hot. But what did we do last night?

I see all the beers and hookah around the house.

"Fuck." I say to myself.

"What's wrong?" Ryan comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me.

"Oh nothing." I kiss him.

"Well, alright then." He kisses me back.

"What did we do last night?"

"I don't know it was all a blur."