Unsteady // kiani ff

Chapter 10

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Will
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I jump from the sound of the shattered glass that I just threw at the wall. Why would he do this to me? This is all his fault. He tried to blame it on Ryan, funny. You would think this would end up like any other love story. I forgive him and we kiss and live happily ever after. I don't think that will ever happen. I didn't want him back, or did I? I did. But it he hurt me too much. I can't take anymore of that.

All of my thoughts shatter when I hear a knock on the door. I slowly approach it and open it slowly.

"It's been twenty four hours. You have one day. What do you want?" I say very annoyed.

"Now look, I'm so so sorry for doing that to you, it was so dumb of me. I regret everything! I still love you so much Will. It's an undying love that will never ever go away. I cheated on you, I know, that was so fucking dumb. I'm sorry Will. I love you." He states very sweetly.

"J-Jor-" I say tearing up and shakily

"Please Will, I love you." He says with tears streaming down his delicate face. I look away.

"I-I just can't."

"Wh-" I cut him off.

"I'm sorry, Goodbye Jordan." I close the door slowly, leaving the small boy outside alone. I lean against the closed door and slid down and begin to sob aggressively. I can't take it anymore. I stumble up the stairs and look for my old friend. The tears still stream down my face until I find the small object. I roll up my sleeve and shove it immediately into my skin. I don't stop, cut, after cut. I fall to the ground onto the puddle of blood. I black out. Two years without harming myself. Well guess we are back to zero.

I wake up in a hospital bed with my arm stinging very badly. I try to move but I can't. I'm completely numb.

"Will?" I hear a familiar shaky voice. I look over to see Zack.

"What am I doing here?" I ask him very weakly.

"You cut thirty five times." He said nervously.

"Jordan did this to me." I mumble,

"I'm so sorry I did this to you." I hear Jordan say through his crying. I look over to see him.

"Jor?"

"It's me." I weakly sit up with my none numb hands.

"Come here." I beg Jordan. He walks over to the bed and I hug him.

"Will, I'm sorry." Jordan said very shakily.

"Just shut up. It's okay." I kiss his cheek. I wake up with a gasp. It was just a dream, I wish it wasn't. I'm in the hospital still, Zack is actually right next time me in a chair. His face is in his hands.

"Z-Zack?" He looks up immediately, looking scared as ever.

"You're up. Are you okay? How do you feel?" He asked a billion questions.

"I'm okay. Don't worry, but why am I in here?" I say quietly.

"You cut thirty five times. You almost bled out Will. Why did you do that?" He asks.

"Jordan. Jordan made me do this."

"Why? What did he do?!" He exclaims.

"Well. I haven't told you, and you weren't at graduation. I'm gay Zack, and I was dating Jordan. But he cheated on me with Ryan." I mumble

"What?"

"I'm gay."

"Oh god. I'm so so-" I cut him off

"Save it. I've heard enough sorry's" I say after.

"Okay." Jordan walks in the door with tears streaming out his eyes.

"Jordan-"

"I know. I'm dumb, this is all my fault, I caused all this, if I didn't fucking go after Ryan this never would have happened!" He yelled. I rip out the needle in my arm and run up to Jordan and hug him.

"Will-"

"It's okay. It's all okay." We stay in the hug for a long time. We all stay in silence while Zack watches in 'awe'.

Jordan puts both his hands on both sides of my jawline and kissed me passionately. I loved to have this back.

"I love you Will."

"I love you Jordan."