Unsteady // kiani ff

Chapter 2

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Jordan
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I wake up to the sound of my phone going off, of course it's Ryan, probably asking for cigarettes or drugs like always. I decline the call, I don't want to deal with his shit. Every Saturday I go to town, get to the shops and things.

I get out of my bed slower then ever and go to my bathroom. I take off my clothes and go into the shower. I finish my shower and I get my clothes on, then I grab my keys. I pet my cat Sam and walk out the door. I get in the car and my phone rings. Once again it's Ryan, I answer with a huge sigh.

"What do you want Ryan?" I answer,

"Jordan I want to apologise." Ryan says.

"For what?" I ask,

"I use you for dru-" I hang up. I'm not dealing with it like I said.

I start the engine and drive off. I get to town and park in a random parking lot. I get out of my car and go to my first place I always go, Starbucks. Don't judge me, that shits good. I go inside, I look up and see Will.

He is kinda cute.

No Jordan, you don't like boys.

Before anything, I went up to him. I tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around and blushed immediately and hurriedly fixed his blue flower crown. He flashed a smile,

"H-Hey Jordan." He greeted me.

"Hey Will." I greeted back.

"S-So what brings you here?" He asked and then ordered his drink.

"I really like Starbucks." I tell him and giggle. He giggles back

"Me too."

"So, uh, so do you - do you want to go around - town with me?" I ask him very nervously.

Why am I nervous? I don't like him or anything, do I?

No Jordan! You don't like guys!

Will looked very nervous but kept his smug smile

"Yes! I-I mean yeah, that sounds fun." He replies.

"Great." I answer then smile and order my drink. We walk to my car and get in,

"What about your car?" I ask Will,

"We will come back." Then takes a sip of his drink.

"Alright." I flash my stupid smile and I start to drive off.

While driving we have a small talk,

"So uh, Will," I say to him

"Yeah?" He replies,

"Who do you have a crush on in our school?" I asked. He nearly choked on his drink when he heard the question.

"Uhh" Will says,

"Come on I won't tell anyone." I tell him.

"Well um, I - I have a crush o - on you." Will stuttered his words.

That was cute.

No Jordan stop you don't like guys!

My thoughts were screaming at me, back and forth, back and forth.

"Y - You do?" I ask him and he nods in response.

"I mean how couldn't I? You're adorable, just everything about you is perfect." He tells me and I blush hard.

Why are you blushing, you aren't a fag.

Maybe I am?

No you aren't!

My thoughts kept screaming at me. I drive into a parking lot and sit there with my head in my hands.

"You okay?" Will asks,

"I'm fine." Biggest lie of my life.

"You don't really seem like it, are you sure?" He asks,

"I'm fine, Will." Still lying,

"I'm just confused." That wasn't a lie. I look at Will and he is fixing his flower crown on his perfect head.

No you don't like him. He isn't perfect to you!

"C - Can you just go." I ask him,

"What?" He replies.

"I said can you go." Will looks at me with a sad face, I felt like a douche.

"Yeah I - I'll go." He got out of the car and walked to his car about a block away.

I'm such a fucking asshole.

Thoughts after thoughts, they just wouldn't stop. I drive off to my house. I can't take another minute in the crowds of people.