The Mysteries Of The Mind

Innocent

TRIGGER WARNING: SA

I remember the night like it was yesterday
freshman year, long brown hair, I was so innocent

you seemed so nice, so I brought you to my room
I had never done this before, it was all so very new

I had no idea what you were planning to do
you took my innocence
left me to live with the memory of your fingers on my skin
it never ends

I dream it happened again, and again
I remember the moment I realized what happened
I was in denial of how bad it really was, how hard
I never thought the love you give another person could leave so many scars

my friends held me close while I cried, telling me it's not my fault
but my insides scream it's not his fault, it's mine
I brought him to my room, I trusted him, I was the dumb one, if only I had chosen to walk a different line

I remember your response to my plea: "no, I know you like it." I can still feel your breath on my neck
I feel sick, I feel death

freshman year, long brown hair, I used to be so innocent
but you took my innocence

now I give my body to people who don't deserve it, in order to feel some sort of control
but all i'm really doing is hurting my soul
you left a large, gaping hole

freshman year, long brown hair, I used to be so innocent