The Mysteries Of The Mind

Good Enough For You

I never seem to be good enough for you

now every time I say this you push me away, saying it isn't true

but why else is it that when I make one simple mistake, we're through?

I tried so hard to be someone that you would like, but you always seem to find a flaw

something I did, something I said, now that was the final straw

it didn't matter how much I apologized or tried to make it up to you

"what's done is done," you would say, making it clear we were through

God it was so exhausting trying to live up to your standards and expectations

it made me realize how desperately I needed a vacation

but no matter what, I could never find the courage to leave

I guess your conditional love was all I thought I would ever need

the worst part is, you could make any mistake you liked

and you would never hear a word from my side

I wasn't allowed to be angry, or upset

you were not capable of wrongdoings, your conscience was set

how am I supposed to survive in these conditions?

constantly fighting to stay on your good side?

cause even when I thought I won, I messed up again, and was back on the never ending landslide

I stick around, even though I shouldn't, waiting for your love to no longer be conditional

waiting for my type of love to be what our relationship consisted of

I know i'm probably insane, doing the same things to get a different outcome

but I want to believe you're the man I think you are, that you just need a little patience, and I won't always be living off your crumbs

I question if i'm good enough for you, if loving me is so hard

but leaving you and being alone would force me to realize that my very soul has been marred

I never seemed to be good enough for you