while we were talking i started to think about why luke liked me and other stuff making me paranoid. i guess i was thinking for a long time because everyone was staring at me.
"are you ok alanna"(luke)
"hm- oh yeah im fine just thinking about stuff"(al)
"are you sure you seemed worried about something"(luke)
"it's nothing im fine"(al)
"ok"(luke)
when they went back to talking i started thinking about my whole life. why am i here if my whole life has been......HELL. i haven't had anything good happen in my life. i have been cheating on, abused, lost, depressed, and i have even lost everyone that has loved me or i have loved. i dont know if i should even be dating luke because what if lose him like everyone else i have loved- wait did i just say i loved him......UGGHHHH i need to just relax but what if.....no it will be ok im just being paranoid. while i was thinking about stuff my thoughts were interrupted by someone saying my name.
"Alanna"(luke)
"yeah"(al)
"were leaving are you coming"(luke)
"yeah comin"(al)
i followed luke and everyone outside and we started heading to the apartments. i strayed behind everyone. but i guess mikey noticed because he slowed down and started walking with me.
"hey alanna you seem a little worried today what's wrong.(mike)
"nothing's wrong i'm just thinking about stuff"(al)
"alanna don't lie i know something's up everyone does you can trust me please just tell me"(mike)
"it's nothing im just being paranoid"(al)
"please tell me"(mike)
"i'm afraid something is going to happen with me and luke because everyone i have had actually care about has....we'll.... they all leave me somehow or i get hurt"(al)
"well i know luke he won't hurt you and he won't leave and neither will we"(mike)
"thanks mikey"(al)
"you're welcome now because we are already here go figure out what you are going to wear for your date"
"mikey it doesn't take me three hours to figure out what i'm going to wear"(al)
"whatever"(mike)
i went up to my apartment and started thinking of song lyrics since i have about two hours to kill.
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i finally had some lyrics for a new song but i hadn't got the music for it yet but i sung the lyrics out loud to a good beat for it right now.
Have you had a million reasons why you wish you'd never seen the truth?
Have you looked into the mirror and the clown is staring back at you
I can't control myself, don't know who I've been
And who is this monster wearing my skin?
A movie in black and white. When will it end?
'Cause every time I scream no one hears me
It feels like I'm paralyzed,
and I can't
escape from the prison I'm
living in.
I'm naming the voices in my head
They keep on telling me to give in
But it's making me stronger
Fight a little longer
I'm gonna bring me back to life
And I won't be paralyzed
Have you searched for something deeper out of fear that life's a lonely road?
Have you roamed the darkest corners of the earth until you're just a ghost?
I can't control myself, don't know who I've been
And who is this monster wearing my skin?
A movie in black and white. When will it end?
'Cause every time I scream no one hears me
It feels like I'm paralyzed,
and I can't
escape from the prison I'm
living in.
I'm naming the voices in my head
They keep on telling me to give in
But it's making me stronger
Fight a little longer
I'm gonna bring me back to life
And I won't be paralyzed
I'm not afraid, I can face my demons
Even if they tear me down
If I fall, let me fall, it might take time
But I'll find my own way out
It feels like I'm paralyzed,
and I can't
escape from the prison I'm
living in.
It feels like I'm paralyzed,
and I can't
escape from the prison I'm
living in.
I'm naming the voices in my head
They keep on telling me to give in
But it's making me stronger
Fight a little longer
I'm gonna bring me back to life
It feels like I'm paralyzed
feels like I'm paralyzed [3x]
But it's making me stronger
Fight a little longer
I'm gonna bring me back to life
And I won't be paralyzed
i keep singing the song over and over as i got ready.i took a shower and washed my hair and body then got out. then i noticed i still had some old light brown hair dye left so i used the rest on my hair. as i waited for it to dry i changed into my white dress i had picked and some heels.
after my hair dried i out on my dream catcher necklace. then after i straightened my hair i put on a white flower crown then i started on my makeup. i put on eyeliner and everything else. after i got finished i looked at the clock and saw i still had ten minutes so i decided to spend them listen to music until luke came to get me.
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OMG so happy thanks guys for 100 reads. i hope you're loving the book <3. i know cliffhanger but i had too. now i will update soon. i am going on vacation in a week so i will try to get a chapter out before i leave. i won't be able to update while i'm on vacation but i will try to write some chapter while im down their. alright well i will see all of you beautiful people later and bye.
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One Chance L.H. { Completed }
Fiksi PenggemarAlana is a 18 year old girl who has always loved singing. Sadly her parents died on their way to her penthouse in Sydney Australia. It has been one year since that and she has been pushing everyone away when a boy moves into the penthouse next to he...
