One Chance L.H. { Completed }

Chapter 18

"You didn't tell me"(al)

"Tell you what"(Luke)

"You didn't tell me about the tour" (al)

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"I was going to tell you"(Luke)

"When Luke, the day you left"(al)

"......"(Luke)

"Just get out"(al)

"But al-"(Luke)

" I SAID GET OUT"(al)

Luke turned around and walked out the door. After he left I let the tears fall. I just laid in bed and cried for hours Lauren tried to get me to come out but I told her to go away. She tried to bring me food but I wouldn't take it. After a few hours Luke texted me.

Hey I'm sorry but I just didn't want to leave you so I thought if I didn't tell you maybe it wouldn't get between us. ( Luke )

Well Luke you got it between us by not telling me I would of understand if you had told me sooner. ( al)

I know but.... ( Luke )

But what Luke, did you think the tour would stop just because you didn't tell me. It isn't going to happen. ( al)

Why are you making such a big deal over this ( Luke )

Because your my boyfriend and I don't want to lose you ( al)

We've only been on one date that doesn't make us boyfriend and girlfriend (Luke )

So your saying we never were a thing (al)

Yeah so I don't know why you are acting so clingy when we aren't even dating (Luke)

really i thought i loved you but i guess i was wrong because i guess you never even cared about me(al)

you're right i didn't for all i care you can kill yourself i wouldn't care(luke)

I stopped replying once he said that. He never actually loved me. I felt like I was going cry a lake after that and the only thing I could think of was in my bathroom. I walked into the bathroom and opened a drawer. I grabbed the silver blade and put it to my skin.

One for Luke

One for being dumb enough to think he actually cares

And idk how many more for me being alive.

I let the blood run down my arm for a little bit before I cleaned it up. I walked back into my room and just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling.

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I woke up to someone knocking on my door. i quickly hid my arm under my bed sheets.

"who is it"(al)

"it's calum"(cal)

"come in"(al)

he walked in and closed the door behind him. he sat down on my bed.

"what do you want calum"(al)

"i want to talk to you about luke"(cal)

"no calum there's nothing to talk about"(al)

"really because luke locked himself in his room and won't come out"(cal)

"i don't know why he is sad when he is the one who broke me"(al)

"what did he do too because he told me you broke up with him"(cal)

"really because i quote he said for all i care you can kill yourself i wouldn't care"(al)

"alanna you know he doesn't mean that he is just upset"(cal)

"we'll it doesn't matter anymore because he broke me"(al)

"alan-"(cal)

"just get out"(al)

"but -"(cal)

"i said get out"(al)

he got up and walked to the door he looked back at me but i turned my head away. he left without a word. i started crying till i fell asleep.

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i didn't go to the airport with the guys to say goodbye. but i promised them i would skype them almost everyday. lauren also went back home. the boys had left a few hours ago and already landed in england. i told them i would skype them around 6:00 and it was 5:30. i grabbed my phone and texted mikey and asked if i could skype them now.

hey mikey can i skype you guys now i'm really bored (al)

yeah sure(mikey)

i went on skype and clicked video call mikey. he answered after a few rings.

hey(al)

hey(mikey)

where is everyone(al)

luke went outside when i said i was skyping you and cal and ash are in a different room which i'm too lazy to get up to walk to.(mikey)

ok. well im bored.(al)

me too(mikey)

me and mikey talked for a long time then i think i fell asleep because i woke up still on skype with a snoring mikey on the screen. i sat up and stretched then i heard someone yell at me. when i looked at the screen luke was looking through the screen surprised at something. when i looked down i noticed i was wearing a short sleeve shirt with nothing covering my wrist.

".........."(al)

"alanna plz tell me those are old scars"(luke)

"why do you care you told me you wouldn't care if i died"(al)

".........."(luke)

"it's your fault anyways you made me want to do this to myself"(al)

"you better tell mikey,cal, or ashton"(luke)

"no"(al)

"you better or i'm going to"(luke)

"fine i will tell them later"(al)

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hey guys. i started school so i will not be updating alot but i will try. well good night guys and peace.

song recommendation: the drug in me is you ~ falling in reverse