One Chance L.H. { Completed }

Chapter 19

ughhhhh. i don't want to tell them but luke said if i don't tell them by 9:00 he is. but i even if i did who would i tell. ughhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate the world, i hate my life, and i hate my heart. as i was debating with myself calum skype called me. i hesitated for a minute before i answered.

"hey alanna"(cal)

"hey cal.....how was your show"(al)

"it was good but i wish you were here it would be more fun"(cal)

"yeah im bored as Fudge here"(al)

"hey luke said he talked to you this morning what did you guys talk about"(cal)

"oh....um....nothing just stuff"(al)

"i know your lying. everytime you lie you bite your lip and look away. what is going on"(cal)

"........."(al) i opened my mouth but nothing came out.

"alanna"(cal)

i didn't say anything i just pulled up my sleeve and showed him my wrist.

"alanna why"(cal)

"because luke broke me"(al)

"how?"(cal)

"he built me up and told me he loved me and glued me back together but then he pushed me off the table and shattered me into a million pieces"(al) i said with tears in my eyes.

"alanna promise me you won't do it again"(cal)

"why i would only be telling you a lie"(al)

"alanna we are coming back to australia tomorrow for concerts there and i'm coming straight there"(cal)

"why it's not like you can stop me"(al)

"oh really well i guess you will have to wait and see"(cal)

"whatever just don't tell anybody plz"(al)

"no can do bye"(cal)

"cal-"(al)

i got cut off by him ending the call. yay now i will have everybody yelling at me. after about ten minutes my phone started going off. i just looked at the messages but didn't unlock my phone.

alanna why?

plz stop we care about you

answer me plz alanna

alanna are you ok

alanna plz dont do it again

i finally opened my phone and replied to them. after i replied i got on twitter and tweeted.

i want a little bit of california with a little bit of london sky. i want to take my heart to the the end of the world and fly away tonight. (if you have listen too fly away your're welcome)

after i tweeted that luke tweeted something tagging me.

i really miss you :,( alanna

after he posted that people started tweeting me mean tweets. yay thanks luke i say while rolling my eyes. i put my phone down and went in my bathroom. i looked in the mirror.

"i don't know why people hate me. maybe i just wasn't suppose to live in this world" i said into the mirror looking at myself. my phone wouldn't stop going off with tweets. i skimmed over some of them and they were all just mean comments. i tried to ignore them but they wouldn't stop. i opened my drawer and grabbed my blade. i gave myself five cuts on each arm and a couple on both ankles. i started feeling dizzy but i didn't know why because i hadn't cut deep but then i remembered i hadn't eating or drank anything today. i still had the blade in my hand. i started thinking about luke and a tear slipped out of my eye then everything went black.

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i woke up in the bathroom. when i looked up there was a bandage on my wrist and ankles. i tried to stand up but my ankles hurt so bad i fell back down. then i remembered what happened last night and i started to cry.

"why am i such a f*** up" i said outloud to myself

"you're not a fuck up"

i looked up and saw calum standing in the doorway with a worried look.

"yeah i am calum and you know it"

"no your not and why did you do it again"

"because i miss luke and it's all my f****** fault"

"it's not your fault"

"yes it is cal and all i want to do is run up to him and say sorry"

"we'll you can he came with me he just didn't want to come in here with me because he thought you would get mad at him for coming"

"does he know what i did"

"no"

"we'll i don't want him to know but he will figure out because my ankles hurt to much to walk"

"we'll i help you walk over to him"

"thanks but could you get me some jeans and a long sleeve tshirt"

"yeah"

"thanks"

he walked out of the bathroom and came back with a green day hoodie and some jeans that were loose at the ankles. he walked out and closed the door while i somehow managed to get my jeans on. i slid the hoodie on and told him he could come back in. he helped me walk into the living room. when luke turned around i said what i wanted to say before he could say anything.

"i don't know what else to say but i miss you"

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Fly away: by 5sos (of course best song in the world right now)