strings of my heart

suffering

Alec's point of view

Four years passed since I told her that I never wanted to see her again, I found out that she moved to California after she became famous for dancing on the internet along with sharing tips for anyone that was first time mothers and how she coped with raising a child without the help of the baby's father and it made me remember that night we shared when we made love.

I never realized how much I hurt her until she spoke about the heart break she felt with me telling her that I never wanted to see her again until I seen her crying while she talked about it to her viewers.

I quickly stopped the video and pushed away my laptop not realizing Andy was behind me listening to the video she posted on her YouTube vlog.

Andy: I know you had your reasons for letting her go but the last time I seen her, she was upset with the decision you made. She told Emily, Mitch and myself that she still loves you, I don't know if she still does since Mitch and I don't see her much anymore but I think you should go see her dude.

Alec: I don't know if she will be interested in talking to me after the hurt I put her through.

Andy: you're the father of her child Alec, of course she would want to see you and I don't think you should make her wait any longer. It's been four years since you last seen her, how long are you going to continue struggling with this?

Alec: I know you guys miss her coming around but I can't put her through another heartbreak again.

Andy: so don't break her heart, I know you still love her and you should be with her...

Alec: I can't risk messing up the tour schedule...

Andy: forget about the damn tour Alec, she's here in Los Angeles, she's not far away from you. Go see her for the sake of your daughter.

Alec: I have a daughter?

Andy: yeah, she looks just like you dude. You deserve to have that relationship with Riley

Alec: why do you care so much?

Andy: because I want to see you happy again and I know you are passionate about your music but it's not enough when you still have feelings for Evrin.

Alec: I do still love her...

Andy: and I know that you have been thinking about her in some of the songs you sing. Don't keep her waiting dude.

I seen him lay a ripped piece of paper in front of my arm and I noticed that it had an address on it along with an apartment number.

Andy: go get your girls back and don't let her go...

I grabbed my car keys and drove to the address on the paper Andy gave me then I found myself standing outside of her apartment door as I knocked on it.