Saving Ryder

Shaleigh

I'm running so fast I trip over a bowling ball and go flying three lanes down. I hurry to my feet, and start to run again when all of a sudden his arms are around my waist, and he's carrying me over his shoulder. I start beating on his back and kicking him. "Let me down Ryder." He just laughs at me. Finally he throws me on the couch. I go to stand up, and I trip into his arms my hands landing on his muscular arms. Oh my, his body is amazing. I move my hands up his arm, down his chest to his abs. His abs are definitely toned, and they're hard as a rock. I look up at him, and he's staring at me cautiously. He starts leaning in, and I can't move to stop him. Before I know it his lips crash against mine. His hands immediately go to my face, and my hands around his waist pulling him close to me. He pushes me against the wall behind me pinning me with his hips. His erection pushing against my sex. His lips move from my lips to my neck, and I immediately moan out in pleasure. He picks me up while kissing me still, and puts me on the couch and climbs on top of me. His tongue invading every part of my mouth. My hand goes up his shirt onto his abs, as I run my fingertips up and down his stomach. He pushes his erection against my sex, and it makes me cry out. There's no denying he has a big dick "I can't do this Ryder."
"Why stop now? We were just getting started." He says, and I can hear how cocky he is being just by the tone in his voice.
I get up and I run up stairs and into my room. I feel like complete shit for just leaving him standing there like that. I just didn't know what else to do. I have never been kissed like that in my entire life. The way his tongue touched mine caused my body to react in ways I've never experienced. "Shaleigh can we please talk?" He asked quietly.
"Come in." I say in a whisper.
"What was that all about?" He asked concerned.
"Nothing." I say really quickly.
"Why the fuck does it matter if we kissed?" he asked.
"I have a boyfriend Ryder." I answered.
"He hasn't talked to you in three days, Shaleigh!"
"That's none of your business, Ryder."
"It is. You're my business."
"Please leave me alone." I beg.
"You can't deny what you felt down there. I felt it too. Shaleigh, I like you. I can't deny it anymore. When we are together the things I feel scare me. The moment I met you I knew what true beauty was. When you ran out my door that day and didn't talk to me for nearly a month I knew what it was like to be heartbroken again. You've made me want to become a better man. I use to just fuck girls no strings attached, but then I met you, and everything changed. That day when I fucked Abigail it was a drunken mistake. I was so hurt that you went on that date with Rush that I needed something or someone to take my mind off of you. I'm fucked up Shaleigh. I have a fucked up past, and my ex completely shattered my heart. Just please don't give up on me."
My heart just dropped. I had no idea he felt this way about me. I just have no idea how I feel anymore. Part of me feels like I have feelings for him, but then again how could I when I have a boyfriend? He's been ignoring me though for some odd reason, and I intend on finding out why. "Ryder, I have no idea what to say. I have mixed emotions right now." What happens when your head and heart pull you in two different directions?