BORDER CONTROL

Chapter 42

MABEL ESTHER

I was blinded by the lights in the bathroom two days after I had awoken. The lights kept me from seeing the true aftermath sitting next to me. My mate looked as concerned as ever when I looked around to find him. He reached out to me, but I backed away.

My body reacted poorly again and it ticked Ryden off. He explained that my body was reacting to the bond, we were fated. During our "heat," we had both marked each other all over again. Everything is a bit blurry to me and I can only remember the haunting screams from myself as I was being raped over and over again by the male who is supposed to protect me.

It has been about a month since that moment in the bathtub, the realization sunk in when I went to bed that night. I lost my title and I lost all sense of myself. The rogues have been hunted down and some are in hiding. The plan was to fall into their traps and then attack as I am strong enough, but I can not get my body to react better.

I've been playing along with this charade of the scared little mate who wants nothing, but to submit. It's been lonely away from everyone, I have to keep myself isolated until I can get away without anyone noticing me gone. The rogue who is not allowed to see me has had her pup, Jay Stephan... Future Beta.

"Are you listening to me?" Ryden glares at me from the other side of the table, "we need to write up the treaty to mend the two packs."

I cower as he raises his voice, "You have done nothing, but sit here and stare at the fucking wall!" My body begins to react badly again, but I keep seated in my chair. A little reaction can make him angry. "I am sorry, Mabel." He motions for the server to take his plate and mine.

"Do you have anything to say at all?" I am trapped in my mind, the voices linger around trying to figure out what we can do next. "I am sorry for scarring you." He comes closer to me, "I am frustrated."

Ryden bends down in front of me and I keep my eyes locked on the wall. He senses the fear coming from me and backs away slowly, his wolf wants out to see us, but it won't happen. "We will talk more about this tonight, you can roam the house until then." He walks out of the kitchen and to his office.

"Alpha?" The rough rogue appears from around the corner, "there are some things that are needed with your approval." I growl at him but keep seated while he watches from afar. He knows he did bad, he knows that he won't survive this.

Slowly moving my lips, "To help me finish this is the least you can do." He nods and blinks a few times before leaving the room. His scent lingers for a moment and then it is gone.

I stand up with no help and begin my journey to our room. The room is on the second floor so it would be more difficult for me to run, I have slowly begun to master the stairs. My legs are still in pain every once in a while, but they work fine. My chest heaves up and down when I get to the top and I rest while I watch a pack wolf walk by. She smiles, but lets it down when she sees me. Her pity is unneeded. "We are all here for you."

My feet hit the wooden floors of my room and I smell a musky scent coming from the bathroom. He had left his office to come up here, but I didn't hear him. The shower is running hot water and I walk in to see the shower is indeed occupied. "You can come in." He washes off the soap from his body. His eyes never meet mine when I take my clothes off and place them on the floor next to his.

He knows that my wolf can't resist even if I hate it. His hands, his words, his dick, his body, and the skin-to-skin contact make me want to retract and vomit all over again. However, I am left to suffer from the fated bond we are under.