Conrads p.o.v
Come to think of it now I probably loved her then. I probably loved her before that but if I didn't I definitely was after that day but being 9 years old. And being me I didn't know it yet I wouldn't know I even liked her until I was 10 years old. Let alone that I loved her.
But I did and I do and even now that I have feelings for belly and I messed things up with her . And we're going to be going to college next year. And Jeremiah has feelings for her not to mention my kind of girlfriend. And everything going on with our moms and dads.
I can't stop thinking about her. Liking her.
Needing her . Wanting her. Loving her.
And even though it kills me that I hurt her I can't stop. I can't stop saying the wrong things or doing the wrong things. But I could never bring my self to let her go and let her be happy with someone else.
Not when I know she still has feelings for me. Not when I know she wasn't ready to let me go yet ether.
That maybe selfish ? .. hell there was no maybe about it it was incredibly selfish. But that's what she made me a selfish fool who despite not knowing how to love anyone. falls for her harder with every moment he spends with her.
After there done eating everyone gets up to leave.
Addie was bringing in all the dishes that belly and the boys left behind.
I bring mine up too as I hear her and my mom talking.
"You really didn't have to do that lin" Mom laughs "it's not like anyone else did"
"Yh witch is why I'm helping it's not fair for you and mom to do everything your self.,I'll do the dishes and you to can start getting ready for the movie night"
"You are an angel"mom says kissing her head and hugging her.
" Yes she is my little helper" Laurel said kissing her cheek. Then placing a gentle hand on it.
"Also thank you so much for doing this debutante thing for me, mom says a small smile on her lips
It really means a lot it"
Laurel looks less than thrilled but she bites her tongue.
"I just can't wait to see our girl in that white dress" she looks so happy
Laurel on the other hand gets a pained look on her face and quickly turns away so me and Addie can't see . The two of them leave and I put my dish on the counter I little harder than I meant.
She terns around and looks to me like she was expecting me to say something so I did .
" aw Little miss perfect once again" I don't know why I said it I don't why I'm so angry all the time it's not her fault.
She rolls her eyes and terns back to the dish's not sparing me a glance.
"So you're giving me the silent treatment" I say looking at anything but her.
"I'm not" she says still not looking back at me
"Then why aren't you looking at me" I say
"Please like your looking me"
"Addie" I say a little louder then I meant to and she finally terns around again.
"Because I'm not doing this" she says as she puts the dish down on the drying rack and she walks closer to me
"Your angry." about something you don't want me or anyone else knowing.. and your acting out" she walked closer again
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RomanceAdeline or Addie Conklin had been in love with Conrad Fisher. Ever since she was 9 years old. But It didn't matter how much she liked him or how much he would Flirt with or lend her on he was one the thing she couldn't have . Even though for For S...
