Joshua looked at Seokmin with eyes flooded with tears, and the other was in such pain that his tears struggled to let go. Joshua swallowed the ball of guilt and pain and other emotions that he couldn't point out.
He knew that he had made a big mistake and it was too late for a sorry, he didnt want to let go but there was no other choice left for him, he had messed up bad and he regretted every moment of it, instead of the ones he had spent with the one standing infront of him trying his best to not show any sign of smotion but it was impossible and joshua could see all of it. He could see what he had caused.
Joshua wiped his tears and took his jacket from the rack and walked out, leaving Seokmin right in his spot just like when he did before.
He was making the same mistake again.
He made his way out of the building and his tears streamed down once again endlessly. Looking at the sky he closed his eyes and let the trapped tears flow. He opened his eyes as be felt something drop on his face. Before he could process what it was. A great storm started within seconds and joshua was wet in a second. He was so lost in his thoughts that he stared walking not careing where he was going or where he was walking. The storm was so rough that he couldn't see anything, including the blurring of his vision because of his tears.
He couldn't walk anymore, he leaned on the wall with his back as he slowly crouched down his hands around his legs. He cried and let it all out. What is the point of living now? He thought. He didn't have his parents and they hardly talked to him, when he thought he had someone but he turned out to just be a player, and when he found someone he wasn't supposed to let go, he did. He left him and for the wrong person. The regret and guilt was eating him up and he just wanted it to stop, he wanted to make everything better but there was nothing left that he could change.
After he doesn't know how long, he stood up barely being able to but he still managed to walk somehow. The fog was so thick that he couldn't make out his surroundings at all.
He took his wobbly steps by having support from the wall. His mistake was to let it go and without him knowing he was now in the middle of the road. He was lightly taking his steps before he heard a loud sound come infront of him, two lights appeared and he was so weak to move more he just stood there as he saw the two lights coming towards him with rapid speed. If it was his death coming to him, he would gladly take it.
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This was a short chapter of just joshua, next its gonna be either the second last chapter or last, so stay tuned!
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