He just stood there without saying anything. The anxiety came rushing back in.
"Ah...well about that..i was drunk so i just called you and you know, i.." He trailed off. My heart broke into millions of peices as i just stood there looking at him in disbelief.
"So youre saying it was all a lie? All that you said...all of it..it was a lie?" I choked on my tears not believeing it the awful truth.
"Yeah im sorry you know you shouldn't believe everything anyone says you, youre the dumbhead here" he said and slammed the door on my face. My head hung low and the tears flowed down uncontrollably. My jaw clenched at my stupidness.
Im such an idiot.
I loved him. I loved him so much that i was stupid enough to believe what he said, after how he broke up with me. I clenched the handle of my suitcase and walked away on the road not spareing a glance at the house. I left someone who cared for me for my stupid desire. My desire that the man i loved ever so unconditionaly would take me back, would love me like i loved him. But unfortunately i was dumb to think that, and left someone dear to me and im only realizing it now. I was so lost in my thoughts that i didn't even realize i was almost in the middle of the road, and before i could think something hit me and i fell down, my eyes getting blurry and my mind drifting off to the thoughts..
Is this it?
Is this where it ends?
Maybe because i deserve it.
I deserve this-
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Joshuas eyes open wide as he sat up on his bed clutching the fabric of his shirt on his chest as he breathed heavily, tears formed in his eyes at the unpleasant memory. He let the tears flow as he sobbed through the panicked fase. A few dull minutes later he calmed down and made his way to the bathroom as he stood infront of the sink looking in the mirror the treturous nightmare played in his head again. He shook his head and washed his face with cold water. Soon he changed into his work attire after taking a warm shower.
Even though he wasn't feeling like going to work today, there was an important meeting held today and as the manager he probably wouldn't miss it. He quickly put a coat and went out to his car before getting in and driving off. The ride was silent as he always puts some sort of music on the way but his mood was not as always. He parked the car and head straight to his office to prepare for the meeting, he met vernon on the way and greeted him before going on his way.
He opened the door to the office with a sigh as he was starting to get a headache. He gathered whatever he needed and made his way to the meeting room where he saw a few people have not arrived but most of them were there and seokmin was sitting or the front chair as well waiting for the unarrived guests. He opened the door and went in where he was welcomed by the secretary who then went and stood beside seokmin who had his eyes glued to his laptop screen. Joshua sat down a seat away as he got ready for the meeting.
Seokmin on the other hand was stressed as his last meeting was a total fail and this is the one that can make it better or else the company will be at big loss. Even with all the stress he still spared a few glances at the man sitting just a seat away from him. He admired him so much when they first met, jisoo was a very silent boy in highschool and probably is now too but with seokmin he was always the smily and happy guy that seokmin loved. He stared at his face looking at every detail he missed over the years, no matter what it was seokmin was still attracted to him and that made him mad as what jisoo did. But the lingering feelings and need made him insane, the need to have him closer and to hold him and never let go.
Seokmin didnt realize that he was staring for too long but when jisoo eyes met his he quickly flicked them away and fixed them on his laptop screen again.
Soon after everyone arrived and they started talking about the deal, which was getting more intense by the minute. Seokmin was already losing his cool as the choi couple were doing nothing but getting more clingy with eachother and not listening to what seokmin said.
"Mr. Choi i would love you to leave if you have no interest in the deal" he snapped at them not waiting anylonger, deal done or not make a deal with someone who wants it he thought. Mr. Choi looked at seokmin with a stern look.
"Thats not a way to talk to us, you might lose everything if you keep it up" Mr. Choi stated with his eyes stareing at seokmin which effected seokmin in no way.
"Thats none of your business, do have interest in the deal or not?" seokmin said simply pressing his back on the chair and crossing his legs. Mr. Chois mouth gaped open at the words which he thought were infuriating.
"Mr. Lee i should warn you that you talking with the Mr. Choi not a random person, your company will have a big raise if you work with us, dont you want that?" He said raising his brows which seokmin just wanted to shave off. Seokmin leaned with his hands on the table stareing right into the others soul.
"I dont really care if u have no interest" seokmin was losing it at this point and jisoo was getting tense in his spot. "Im not here to see you how much you love your wife Mr. Choi, im here to make a deal so be the professional CEO you are and do your work properly" he went on with his frustration building inside him.
"Mr. Lee!" Mr. Choi stood up from his eat slamming the seat onto the wall. Seokmin sat there and looked at him without much care. "Youre making a big mistake! I wont let this get away and you'll regret it." He snapped and left with his wife. Jisoo and the other managers stood up ubertley to stop them but they were already out the door. Jisoo turned hia head in seokmins direction who has already stood up and was walking towards the door. Jisoo sighed and decided to talk to him after this, it was difficult for him but he had to, seokmin has been like this ever since he came back and jisoo doesn't want anything to the company and on the other hand he is the manager its his job to make it right. He quickly gathered his things and went to his office.
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An: sorry for the late update!
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