Joshua made his way to seokmins office, a little bit warryness was slowing him down but shrugged it off. He knocked on the door and went in, he saw seokmin sitting on his usual place. As seokmin felt the presence he lifted his head up.
"Joshua? Is there something you need?" He asked putting his pen down. Joshua looked at him and took a deep breath.
"Mr. Lee we are in a tough place right now and i know that you are stressed as well but, if there's something going on maybe you should talk it out?" Joshua said looking at seokmin with a worried expression. He took a small breath as seokmin stood u from his seat and stood infront of him his hands in his pockets. Joshua unintentionally looked down and a smile appeared on seokmins face.
"You didnt change...at all" seokmin said and went on. "You know when im sad you know when im hurt you know when i need someone to talk to" Seokmin paused before continuing "you know when i need you" he whispered but it was enough for joshua to hear. Joshua looked up from the floor and a concerned expression was on his face.
"Seokmin.."
His body unconsiously moved towards the other boy and wrapped his hands around the tallers neck embraceing him in a hug before he could even think what he was doing. The taller boy lifted his arms and wrapped them around the smallers waist burrying his face into the others neck.
"You dont know how much i missed you" Seokmin whispered tightening the his grip on the olders waist. Tears formed in joshuas eyes at how much the other boy had suffered because of him.
"I dont know if have the right" managed to utter the words, "but i missed you more that you could ever imagine" he chocked out the words he wanted to say for a long time, that he had wanted tell him even though he thought he didnt deserve it.
Seokmin pulled away but his hands were still secured on joshua's waist. He stared into the eyes of the man he loved and most propably 'love' but he cant seem to get the hod of that. He wiped a tear from the olders cheek and joshua closed his at the touch which make the few tears fall that he was holding.
"Im sorry" joshua choked out, his hands gripped the fabric of Seokmins shirt on his chest.
"Then why did you leave?" Seokmin regretted asking that but it was already said.
"Because i was stupid, and my desire led me somewhere i wasent supposed to be, never supposed to be" joshua gulped the guilt of lying, well he didnt lie completely but that wasn't even near the bitter truth. He didnt want seokmin to hate him, he couldn't just tell him something that will make everything wrong more than it already was.
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After that moment the day was already over and joshua had to go home early because his mom called him out to take care of his little sister as she had to go to a relatives house for an emergency. And with that many days passed and Seokmin and joshua were talking more and seeing eachother after work for dinner. Everytime joshua looked at seokmin his heart melted and he never wanted to let go, he knew he made a big mistake in the past but he wont do it again.
But the truth he kept from Seokmin was enough tear them apart again from eachother.
