His Love

Chapter 18: Moving Day

Jade POV

TW: Mentions of Self Harm

March 20th, 2009

7:37 AM

The morning light assaults my eyes as I start to wake up. I groan and squint my eyes. Tom's arm is wrapped around my waist rather tightly. It feels kind of nice to be held, I won't lie. I gently rub his arm to wake him up. He groans as the sunlight shines in his eyes. "Morning." I say shyly. He throws his pillow over his face and covers back up. He's definitely not a morning person.

"Good morning..." he mumbles deeply from under the pillow. He has a nice morning voice. I stand up and stretch, closing the curtains almost all the way. I trudge to the bathroom, yawning. I look in the mirror and groan. I really need my makeup. 

I decide that I'll wear Tom's clothes out today as I brush my teeth. Tom made Bill go out and get me a toothbrush and some essentials last night.

I hear Tom make his way to the bathroom, almost stomping like a child. He leans in the doorway for a moment, smiling at me through the mirror. I give him a small finger wave and spit the foam into the sink and rinse my toothbrush. Tom steps behind me, laying his head on my shoulder. His hands caress my arms as I fix my hair. His touch makes my body tingle.

 "I'm nervous to see Ev..." I say, picking at my fingers again. He tucks my hair behind my ear. "I'll be there with you, don't worry." He says warmly, his voice still hoarse from sleeping. I nod. "Alright, let's get this over with."

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9:46 AM

The ride back to my apartment was extremely nerve wracking, but now that Tom and I are here, I feel a little more confident. I look out into the parking lot of the building, spotting Ev's car, and next to it, was J's. My confidence drops and I feel sick. Tom steps out of the car and walks around to my side, opening the door for me. My heart races as I take his hand and step out of the car.

We walk up to the door and my hands shake as I fumble with my keys in the deadbolt. Ev pokes her head into the hallway as I walk through the entryway, Tom close behind me. "Oh my God! I've been so worried about you! Where have you been?" she wails.

 She notices Tom behind me and becomes nervous. I look at her coldly, saying nothing. I don't care to speak to her. I move past her, leading Tom to my bedroom. I pull my large suitcase and two duffel bags out from under my bed, and start pulling clothes from my small closet. Tom leaves the room, and quickly returns with all of my things from the bathroom. He packs them all neatly into one of the bags.

Ev stands in the doorway, and her eyes widen. "Why are you packing?" she asks frantically. I don't answer. I don't care enough to even acknowledge her existence. "She isn't safe here." Tom answers coldly. I spot my pocketknife on the floor, and quickly grab it, stuffing it into my bag. "Not safe? How are you not safe here Jade?" she demands. I stay silent as I pack my things. J walks up to the doorway where Ev stands.

 "What's going on here?" he asks, concerned. Tom steps in front of me, blocking me from J's view. His jaw clenches tightly. "Jade, answer me! Why do you think you aren't safe here?" Ev shouts at me. I snap. "I'm not safe from myself!" I yell. "I've been pushed to my breaking point because of both of you! I can't believe you Ev. You were supposed to be my best friend." I snarl. "And you." I turn to J, as I scream. "You cheated on me with my roommate! Of all people, how could you stoop so low. You two will never know all the physical pain you've caused me."  Ev and J give me a look and cross their arms. "Pain? What kind of physical pain could we have caused you?" Ev asks, annoyed. Fuck it. I rip the bandage off of my forearm, revealing dozens of deep slices in my skin. Fresh blood pools around each cut from the bandage being torn off. I wince in pain as I hold out my shaking arm.