𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚

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now here we lay, wrapped up under the sheets. closer than ever. skin to skin, this is how we liked to sleep but most importantly we had to make sure the bedroom door was locked at all costs. sir loved to sneak out of his bed and snuggle up closer to me, but we had to be clothed for times like that.

it would be nights like last night, bey would be sleeping on my chest. i was a light sleeper but i could hear my babies bare feet outside the door and trying the handle. it would pain me to hear him whisper mama outside the door but bey glued me down to the bed and forced me to not give in. it took everything in me to force myself back to sleep, knowing i would cuddle him in the morning.

and now the morning rolled around finally. i couldn't wait to get out of the bed and go see my little boy who was pleading for me to open the door in the middle of the night.

but today was also the day of new beginnings. the plan was in motion. i was scared but mama tina reassured me that everything would go well, she was certain about it. so i had to take her word for it. i was going to make beyoncé my fiancée.

i wanted today to be so special for her, a day that she would never forget, the day that would last forever, the day we could tell our children and even our grandchildren in the future.

who would have thought this would be happening to me? meeting someone who loved me for me, building a family, being accepted into their family, learning and growing with one another, making my father proud. that was the main part. knowing he was looking down and was proud of me and what i had built and what we would continue to build in the future.

slowly dragging myself from under my lady, i made my way to the bathroom to get washed up before changing into some comfortable clothes, settling with throwing on some random sweats. i'm pretty certain they were beyoncé's, not mine. but headed towards the twins room in the house.

slowly, i opened the bedroom door without creating a sound, seeing rumi in her bed fast asleep and sir laying in his bed with his lion teddy in his arms. i won him the teddy at the arcade a few months ago and it was so fitting for him. he was going through a stage after they had just moved into my home and he was scared because of the huge change. but sleeping with the lion teddy, i told him he would feel protected, brave, fearless with it beside him.

now he's never missed a night without that lion.

but his eyes were open. his eyes instantly moved to my direction, lighting up when seeing me. this was my boy, glued to my side all hours of the day. smiling up at me, waiting for me to walk over to him.

and that's what i did. slid under the jungle themed sheets, leading him to climb into my embrace immediately. wrapped my arms around his body as he laid his head on my chest, hand instantly reaching for my ear to rub.

humming, "mhmm, how did you sleep my sweet boy?" i whispered softly to the infant laying in my arms.

he shook his head against my chest. i didn't need to look down but i knew my boy like the back of my hand, and i knew he was pouting. "no good mama. i wan sleep with you in night." he whimpered.

if it was up to me, i would be cuddling him to sleep the whole night, but his mommy doesn't share the bed with her children. and you know what they say, happy wife happy life. whatever she says, goes.

"mamas sorry baby. how about we go make breakfast, just us two?" i asked the young one, who was now yawning on my chest.

he shook his head again, "no mama."

"tired?"

i felt him nod, the first time since i had laid down with him. following his actions, i nodded, placing a kiss on his head, "okay, get some rest sweet boy."