Broken Soul (Larry Stylinson) Alpha/Omega

Chapter 23

"Took you long enough to realize."

"I'm freaking out," Louis said, feeling his heart thump against his ribcage.

"Why?"

Inhaling a deep breath, he tried to calm down. "I've told myself since I presented as an omega that I would never let myself fall for an alpha, that I would never let in another alpha in my life, yet here I am."

"Louis—"

"And it's him. I can't fucking believe I fell for the man I've hated since I got to this place. His stupidly beautiful green eyes, his long curls and broad shoulders. Did I mention his lips? I have never wanted to kiss anyone in my life, but I fucking wanted to kiss those pouty lips when we scent marked each other."

"Louis—"

"But it doesn't matter what I feel because I would never be good for him. I'm literally the worst omega out there. Alphas always complain about how disobedient I am, and father always told me I would never be good—"

"Louis, stop!" Lottie interrupted him. "You need to calm down."

Silence fell between them as Louis tried to sort his thoughts out. He inhaled another deep breath and closed his eyes. "I don't know how to deal with this. I never thought I would be in this situation."

"I get that," Lottie said calmly. "I understand this is a lot for you to process with everything you've been through. I know you haven't had it easy, but do you remember what I told you a few weeks ago? That you shouldn't let your prejudices affect your opinion on how you feel about him but let yourself be the person your heart desires you to be? It still applies to you."

Louis bit his lip as he stared at the wall across the room. He remembered it clearly but had pushed it to the back of his mind for a while. He knew she was right, but that didn't mean it was easy for him to just forget about the voices in his head telling him that falling for an alpha was strictly forbidden, especially Harry Styles. Ever since he first laid eyes on him, he had imprinted in his head that he would never let himself fall for his looks or charm as so many other omegas had done.

"Let's do it like this instead," Lottie insisted. "Do you care about what people think of you?"

Louis didn't have to think long before replying, "No."

"Do you care about what dad told you?"

Louis bit his lip, shaking his head. "I know he only said what he did to make me feel like shit."

"Exactly," Lottie agreed. "So why do you think you wouldn't be good enough for your alpha?"

"Because I'm... me. I'm different, Lottie. You know that. I have never wanted an alpha's attention, and omegas always crave alphas' attention, just like alphas do omegas'. If I don't like them and don't want them around, why would they like me?"

"Are you saying you've never had an alpha like you? I don't believe that," Lottie snorted.

Louis thought about Derek and the alphas in high school and college who had paid more attention to him than the female omegas. She had a point, but they had lost interest as soon as they realized Louis wasn't interested. It was just a matter of time until Derek would too.

"Technically, you're right, but no one has ever bothered staying long enough."

"Because you didn't want them to," Lottie stated. "But now you have found an alpha you like, who you want to pay attention to you. Doesn't that change the whole thing?"

"I mean, yes..." he trailed off, losing track of where he wanted to come with this. He didn't know anymore.

"There's no label on how to be the perfect omega, you know? You're independent. You don't need an alpha by your side, but that doesn't mean you're destined to be alone. It means you're strong, but even strong people need to feel loved."