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Chapter 64

Hanni

My heart feels heavy as the driver that picked me up parks in a large elevator. It starts to rise, until the car is parked in the corner of my friends' living room. The passenger door opens, and my friend Lia offers me her hand.

Her arms instantly wrap around me, enveloping me in a tight hug, and that one small human gesture is enough to make me fall apart. I burst into tears, loud, heart wrenching sobs escaping my throat as she leads me to the sofa.

"I... I didn't know where else to g-go," I tell her.

Lia and I have been friends ever since she walked into my boutique in search of a wedding gown. No one has ever understood our friendship, but it's one of the most genuine and closest I've got. Lia is one of a kind, and right now, she's the one person that can give me the solace I need, without judgement.

"I'm going to kill her," she whispers.

"Easy, Little Psycho," her husband, Jaemin, says.

Jaemin hands me a handkerchief with a small Ψ embroidered on it, a kind smile on his face, "Lia prepared this for you the moment you called our emergency line. She even ironed it."

I take it from him with trembling hands and snuggle closer to Lia, laying my head on her chest as she strokes my back.

"Tell me what happened, Han," she says, her voice soft.

I try to take a deep breath, but my sobs just start to come harder. Lia tightens her grip on me, her fingers gently combing through my hair, soothing me as best as she can.

"Get her," Lia tells her husband, her tone in stark contrast with the gentleness she's showing me, "Go get Minji Kim for me. If Hanni won't tell me what happened, I'll make her talk."

Jaemin chuckles, "It's not so simple, Babe. She's a Kim. I can't just grab her without facing consequences."

"It... it wasn't h-her," I I choke out.

Lia pulls away from me and wipes my tears with the handkerchief she gave me, "Then who?"

I sniff, my eyes falling closed as I gather the courage to tell her what happened, not leaving out any detail. I tell them about Danielle's 21st birthday, the wedding, the pregnancy. By the end of it, I'm exhausted and heartbroken.

"I can't see an end to this," I whisper, "Is this going to be my life now? Marrying her was supposed to be my happily ever after, yet somehow, it feels like the beginning of the end. Forever this time. If I stay, she'll keep chipping away at my soul, until I end up a shell of who I once was."

Lia rubs my shoulders, her gaze reflecting the sorrow I feel, "Jaemin and I can tell you a thing or two about meddling siblings and family," she says, her eyes finding her husband's.

I freeze for a moment, remembering that Lia used to date Jaemin's younger brother, "Trust me when I say that love truly does win in the end. I know that it feels hard right now, and you've made the right choice by taking a step back. Being stuck in that environment makes it hard to remember why you chose to marry her in the first place, despite the odds. I think you'll find that some time away will give you clarity, Hanni," She looks at Jaemin, "Can we get the articles bashing her taken down?"

"I was going to request it, but someone has already taken care of it. Whole servers have been taken down all around the world. The news is reporting that at least two large social media channels are completely down right now. I suspect Kim is behind it. I'm not sure how she's doing it, but it's clear she'll move heaven and earth for her wife."

Lia smiles at me and shoots me an encouraging look, "See? I know it's hard right now, but that woman loves you more than anything. I can't tell you whether that's enough to make dealing with Yunjin worth it, though. I always hated the bitch. I'd gut her if I thought I'd get away with it."

I smile despite my tears and shake my head, "You really are insane, aren't you?"

"Psychotic," Jaemin murmurs under his breath.

The doorbell rings, and I tense. I came here because I wanted to escape for a while, not just from the media, but from my family. It should be the one place no one would come searching for me. Jaemin and Lia's house is a fortress.

Jaemin frowns as he walks to the front door. I hear him groan in annoyance, followed by Danielle's voice. She rushes into the living room, and Lia smiles knowingly as she shifts on the sofa, making space.

"I figured you'd be here. Are you okay?" Danielle asks, "I saw the news, and then Minji told me you left. She's a wreck."

"Speak of the Devil," Jaemin says, showing us the caller ID on his phone. It reads Minji Kim.

"Kim?" Jaemin said. He puts the phone on speaker and holds it out for us.

"Where is my wife? The bodyguards I had on her told me they lost her trail. They were supposed to be the best you've got, so where the fuck is she? The entire fucking world is after her, and your men fucking lost her. If anyone so much as harms one single hair on her head, I will fucking kill you."

My eyes widen in surprise. Bodyguards? I should've known Minji wouldn't take risks with my safety, but I can't believe I never noticed her bodyguards.

Jaemin chuckles, "She's safe."

Minji falls silent, "Is she with you?"

"No."

"Where is she?"

Jaemin ends the call, refusing to answer her. I can't help but smile at him in gratitude. I need a little bit of space to think, and I can't do that with  Minji around.

"Yeah," Jaemin tells me, "She's definitely in love with you. I have never seen her lose her cool, regardless of what situation she was put in. I once watched her foil a kidnapping attempt on Danielle without a single hint of panic crossing her face, yet you go missing for ten minutes, and her world collapses?"

I wrap my arms around myself and inhale deeply, "All I've ever wanted was her love, so shouldn't that be enough? Am I being selfish?"

"No," Danielle says, "I wish it was simpler, Han, but it isn't just Minji you need to consider anymore. Whether we like it or not, Yunjin will now always be a part of your life, of your marriage. If anything, taking some time to think about whether you can accept that is the fairest thing you can do. Isn't that better than breaking Minji's heart down the line? Especially once a child is involved. What if they become attached to you, and then you decide you can't stand being around them after all?"

I nod and lean back, my thoughts reeling. For at least the next few months, I'll have to endure endless gossip and snide remarks in the industry, and that's only just the beginning.

How much more will I have to take if I choose to stay with Minji?

What kind of environment are we creating for Minji and Yunjin's child? No matter how I look at it, me staying results in all of us being unhappy.

Eventually, it'll make the love between  Minji and me dim too.

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