[kodachrome]

8. The One Who's Heard By God

This week feels like a never-ending period
In which my pain consumes my chest
Every single day, you're in my head
Worst of it all, you don't eager seem to leave my heart
Worst of it all, I can't seem to get you out of there
I have no clue as to what this is about
But I'm deeply in love with you
And all I wish for is to turn this love into hate.

Reason

I'm looking in the past for a reason
A response to my daily questions
They don't let me sleep at night
I watch the dawn as the sun rises from the ashes
Of the previous day, of a previous pain
And I wonder if ever, I could shine again
Rise from the darkness you put me throughout
Even if the sun is right there
I can't see its beauty anymore
Below my window, I still see you there
Waiting for me, black hoodie and blue jeans
The day you betrayed me, oh
Even when I'm not sure, you did betray me, oh
My heart is breaking, yours is having fun
Will you ever listen to what I've got to say?
Leaving me all alone in the middle of the night
Couple of months passed by
But honestly, could even be years
And this anger won't go away
Tell me exactly what to do
And give me a reason not to feel this way
Everything is wrong in my life
From the lies you told to the love I feel
Why did I have to love you so bad?
This is the reason why I can't tell you I hate you so
How your actions have weakened my body
I can't bear to see you walking away once again
And so my reason for hating you
It's because I love you, love you.