"What did you do while I was gone?" Lando asked. We were once again, hanging out in his apartment after he came back from Bahrain.
He had a difficult race, since his car wasn't really as fast as he hoped but for some reason, he was in a pretty cheerful mood.
"Hung out with Billie and Nathan, did a few quick jobs, you know" I said as I grabbed the biggest blanket out of his blanket chest and fell down on the couch.
"Cuddles?" I looked up at him when he walked in the living room. "Cuddles" he nodded, walking over to me and snuggled under the blanket.
He smelled like he always did, a mixture of a few colognes mashed together.
It sounds weird, but he actually always smelled nice, manly, safe.
"How are you feeling about the car and all that?" I asked softly because I didn't know if he wanted to talk about it.
So to make it a little better, I put my hands through his hair.
"Not good, we're so much behind and it was so frustrating, you have no idea Nova" he groaned and not because he enjoyed that I was playing with his hair.
He was so frustrated, I never saw him like that.
And trust me, I saw him frustrated many times before.
"It will be better, right? Mclaren will come up with upgrades and stuff"
I could feel how he shrugged his shoulders, put his hand on my leg and put it over his waist, he pressed his body even closer to mine.
He put his face in my neck, his hand under my shirt and rubbed my back slowly.
I was hoping he wouldn't notice how fast my heart was beating because fuck, it was gonna jump out of my chest.
He kissed my neck softly, only a few times before he probably realized we don't do that.
We don't kiss, not on the lips, not against my neck.
But it was as if tonight, we forgot about that.
"I want you there next weekend" he said as he moved his hand from my back to my cheek and looked at me.
"To do what?" I asked. "Nothing specifically, just to hang out with me" the corner of his lips moved up a little.
"I don't know Lando" I sighed a little. "Why are you hesitant?" He asked, his thumb brushed against my cheek.
"People will think we are together, they already think we are dating, you know" even our closest friends didn't believe us when we said we weren't together.
That we were just friends, best friends.
"I know" he said. "If I didn't know us so well I might think so too"
He rubbed his thumb against my lips, resting a little longer on my lower lip.
A little too long.
Friends don't do this. Friends don't look at each other lips and back up at their eyes like we do.
Friends don't think about kissing each other, like I did right now.
"Fine, I'll come with you" I broke the silence, I broke this tension between us.
I broke the possibility of us kissing.
Because I couldn't go on that path again, I had to protect my heart even though it wanted nothing more than jump in Lando's hands.
Like it did before, but he gave it back, all shattered and broken.
It took me months and months to fix my heart again, it probably still wasn't completely fixed.
"Thanks" he mumbled before pulling me back against his body.
I put the blanket on his body as well, cuddled into him and closed my eyes.
This was my safe place, he was my safe place but on the other hand, he was also the most dangerous place.
