Charles and I both went our separate ways. He went to his place and I went to mine.
I told him Lando was coming over and I could see the look on his face, he didn't want me to jump in Lando's arms again.
He cared about me and I think he was afraid that he would hurt me again.
But Lando was my kryptonite, no matter how much I tried, I couldn't get away from him and Charles knew that.
A few weeks ago, I would've ran off this hill, straight into Lando's arms, but now? I think I would've rather stayed with Charles.
Weird.
That's why I agreed to having Lando come over. I didn't know what I was feeling, why my heart didn't jump anymore like it used to do. But I desperately wanted to know if the feeling was still there.
And when I was laying in his arms, my heart felt like it used to feel.
I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.
Lando did that to me.
"Why didn't you come out with us tonight?" Lando asked, his arm around my body.
So Billie didn't tell him I had an event with Charles.
Interesting.
Why wouldn't she tell him? I was sure he asked the same question to her.
"I had an event with Charles" I mumbled. "Oh, does he know I'm here now?"
"Yes" I said.
His heart started beating faster. I could hear it pretty well since I was laying on his chest.
"And he doesn't mind?" Lando asked.
"No, he knows we're just friends, he trusts me" Not a complete lie, I just think Charles doesn't really care that much.
Charles knew we were using each other. We didn't like each other like that and he was probably laying next to Charlotte right now.
Probably kissing her, touching her or even more.
I had a weird feeling in my stomach, thinking about Charles kissing Charlotte left a bad taste in my mouth.
I didn't even know why, because I was laying next to Lando and he was all I wanted.
But we were just friends, we never did anything more than cuddle.
We never kissed or had sex. I guess he had sex with everyone, except for me.
"Oh right" Lando cleared his throat. "Guess there is nothing to be jealous about anyways"
"Exactly" I smiled.
"So are you and Charles.." he started but stopped. "Are we what?"
"Are you guys officially dating?"
I put my chin on his chest and looked up at him. "What? Are you jealous?"
He snorted a little. "No, I'm just interested"
"Oh okay" I nodded before putting my head back on his chest, not giving him an answer to his question.
"So, uh-are you dating him?" He asked again. I had to suppress my smile, because maybe he was a little jealous after all.
Before I could answer, the handle of my door went down, someone was trying to get in.
Billie obviously.
It made me jump up in a reflex and I looked at Lando. "Did you lock the door?"
"I did" he nodded. "I didn't want Billie to ruin it" he said calmly, pulling me back on his chest.
He mumbled something after that. I couldn't quite make out what it was but it sounded something like 'again'
He didn't want Billie to ruin it again.
