Three hours later, Charles and I went back to his place and it didn't take us long to get completely naked.
I was nervous, I could feel my heart beat in my chest. He was so incredibly handsome, with or without clothes, but seeing him naked, definitely left me lost for words.
Not that we needed words right now, not at all.
It would be the first time I was gonna have sex after Lando.
I don't even remember what sex feels like with anyone else besides him.
He knew my body, he knew exactly what I like, he could make my legs shake with only a couple of touches.
It was definitely gonna be hard to beat him.
Charles' lips brushed against my skin, not missing one little spot.
He was very gentle.
Lando was gentle too, but he could also be extremely rough. I liked that.
He used to push me against the wall and kiss me so passionately that I forgot about everything else in the world.
Why was I thinking about Lando when Charles was literally on top of me?
Fuck.
"You want this, right?" He asked as his lips reached mine. "I do" I smiled, put my lips against his and kissed him.
To forget about Lando. To forget about how he made me feel.
But I couldn't stop thinking about him. Not when Charles entered me, not when he pushed deep inside me.
His moans, his groans.
Charles pulled me on top of him, his hands on my hips.
He likes it when I am on top, Lando liked being on top.
Charles likes holding my boobs, Lando liked my ass more.
Before I even knew it, he finished inside of me and I laid down next to him. I faked an orgasm just to get it over with.
And I know that was horrible, I know so many girls wanted to be in my place.
Wanted to be exactly where I was laying right now.
He was breathing fast and looked over at me. "That was amazing"
"Yes it was" I lied. I couldn't break his heart. It wasn't because of him, he was obviously great.
It was because of me, because of my stupid memories.
"I am going to take a quick shower" I said as I pecked his lips. "I'll be right back"
I grabbed my phone, walked to the bathroom and as soon as I closed the door, I broke down.
I started crying. I don't even know why.
And when my phone started buzzing, I started even crying harder.
It was as if he felt something was wrong. It was as if he felt that I needed him.
I would always need him.
Lando
How are the stars tonight Nova?
I don't know if I'm honest.
How are the stars on your side?
Clouded.
Always clouded.
Why?
Because I miss you.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I'm coming over.
I'm not home
Then I'll wait for you there.
Lando...
Nova..
You're driving me crazy
Is that a good thing?
No...
Yes.
