Simply yours (Boyxboy)

Chapter 30

🚧TW🚧
Razor/cutting mention if you think that will be triggering to you you might want to skip this chapter, I'll write a new one shortly for sure. Take care ❤️

Graham's PoV

After the weekend with my birthday we met in school.
School went surprisingly quick and soon we were walking home hand in hand. Summer was coming on and it was a really nice day. It was sunny and not a cloud was to be seen on the sky.

Suddenly Damon's past bully Charlie was in front of us.
Damon looked him straight in the eye "go away we don't want to fight" his face expression was angry, and that was how I felt inside. But because of the fear that I felt I probably looked like a dork. I always looked more scared than angry.
The guy in front of us that was about twice as big as me stepped back "no, look I don't wanna fight I just wanna um.." He scraped his boots on the concrete "apologise"
Damon suddenly looked out of balance, this was certainly not what any of us was expecting. "Apologise... For what?" Oh Damon, he always had to make people say it.. "For bullying you of course.. And calling you all those names and.. Whatever more I did to you, I'm truly truly sorry" Damon looked in him in disbelief. I wanted to get away from there, it was really awkward, I hated situations where it got awkward it made me really anxious and I always seemed to blame myself for the awkwardness.
"Alright.. Well it's in the past just get over it" I heard Damon snatch before pushing past the bully. I followed him quickly and took his hand but we had barely began to walk when the bully turned Damon around again. "I wanted to say.." He paused to take a deep breath "I'm gay.. Too.. That's maybe why I bullied you.." He looked at Damon and me with a slightly confused look.
Damon turned and walked away. I didn't know what to do. I looked to the boy, then to Damon back at the boy and finally walked after Damon.

He walked to his place and right up to his room sitting down on the floor angrily. I walked after him.
He didn't talk which made the situation very complicated. I didn't like to talk and I had a specifically hard time doing so about feelings. This left us in a growing silence. I would have to try and talk. "So.. What was all that about?" I tried.

Damon just looked at me. As Damon usually talked a lot more than me I just didn't know what to do. "He was apologising you know" I tried again. My anxiety grew in my chest and I felt really bad. I did that sometimes. It usually ended up with me not being able to breathe just because I felt bad.
He glared at me for a second then finally opened his mouth. He didn't say what I wanted him to say, not at all.
"Easy for you to say !! You weren't bullied all the time!! YOU KNOW WHO WAS? ME! What did you do about it?! Nothing, okay so just shut the fuck up, it might be easy for you to accept his apologies right away but I can't! He ruined my life!! And you did too, YOU ALWAYS DO"

He was screaming with tears flooding down his cheeks.
My vision blurred as tears formed in my eyes and I was getting real bad now. I got up with only one thing in mind, to get home.
I don't understand how I managed since I could hardly breathe or see but not more than 10 minutes later I was in my room crying my heart out.
He was right. He was so right, I was a worthless coward and I had done nothing but watch him being bullied all the time. I cried softly trying to stop glancing in under my bed. I had stuffed a few razor blades there, I didn't quite knew why when I did it but now I did.

Damon's PoV

I was so angry. I guess it was wrong of me to take it out on Graham but why was he against me? I wasn't gonna forgive that disgusting bully just because he was gay?
Why couldn't Graham help me instead of turning against me. He looked really hurt after I yelled at him but he wasn't exactly crying so I figured he'd be okay, maybe I could apologise tomorrow in school, I thought before having dinner on my own and sitting down in my bed writing songs until I fell asleep.

Authors note: I haven't updated in quite a while and this chapter got.. Out of hand. I guess I just don't know where I'm going with this fic, and I don't want it to be more smut than emotions (thereby the smut-less chapter) I'll try and update soon again since I've got an idea and hope you're all understanding with me in this. I love any sort of response, tysm for reading
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