Simply yours (Boyxboy)

Chapter 39

Graham's PoV

It didn't take long until we were both asleep. I was calmer than I had been for a very long time.
My heart didn't pound in my chest so hard that I could feel it, and I didn't feel nervous in any way.. Just warm, and sad deep deep down. But I was always sad deep down. It just didn't bother me at the moment.
When we woke up it was past 5pm. Damon's parents hadn't woken us up but I was sure they had seen us cos the door was a little bit open, and it wasn't when we got to bed.
Damon was holding me in the exact same way as when we fell asleep and I seized the opportunity of smelling him and watching him sleep.
He was so beautiful. I thought of how lucky I was to have him. Everyone wanted him, but he was mine. I smiled and squeezed him happily. This caused him to wake up. He smiled at me and pecked my lips. "Morning sunshine" he whispered his voice dark and husky from the sleep.
Fuck he was so hot. I smiled "should we do it now?" I whispered blushing.
He smirked softly and stroke my back "do what?"
"You know what I mean.. " I said quietly looking into his eyes. He nodded and started rubbing me. "Wanna top?" He whispered and I shook my head.
I quite liked being the one to 'top' but Damon always seemed really happy and proud when he came inside me. So I let him.
He smiled and crawled up on me pulling both of our boxers down. He grinded on me and thrusted up my ass without any further warm up or lubrication. Not that I minded I was well horny already. He thrusted slow and lovingly holding me tight.
He barely moved at all, his hips just moved him in and out of me slow and gentle. It felt really good and I loved having him so close.
He kissed my neck and moaned in my ear. I moaned as a response, happily. His top hit my spot and I groaned loudly tightening my grip around him. He smiled proudly and did his best to hit my spot again and I squirmed moaning his name.
I loved how proud he was to make me satisfied. I reached down to rub myself following Damon's movements but I barely got to touch myself before he took over control stroking and rubbing me still moving his hips slowly. I squirmed and clustered to him moaning loud.
He bucked his hips hard and it got me over the edge. I saw white as I came all over his belly crying out into his shoulder. He smiled and came as well deep inside me. It followed by a deep groan on his side.
It was so beautiful. All of it.
There was moment of silence where neither of us made a sound and I just felt like we were one person for second. Until we both started panting and someone knocked on his door.
"Yeah?" Damon called out and the door opened. I wanted to hide or disappear or anything but I couldn't and the door opened to reveal..
"Alex?" Damon said and pulled out of me kissing my cheek.
School was over now. Alex walked in and closed the door "yeah hello, I just... It started raining and the makeup has been smeared all over.." He seemed to try and explain why he was there but he didn't seem to really know.
The makeup was running down his face and he had done his best to make it look like he wasn't hurt but some bruises showed. "Your mum said you were sleeping" he said softly.
The weirdest thing about him was that he was not smiling. He actually looked quite sad.
Damon had laid down beside me and pulled the covers over us both, but it was quite useless cos it didn't hide the cum or my blush and Alex had seen us both naked before. He didn't seem to be bothered anyway. He was looking at the floor.
"Awright..." Said Damon "and.. You came here cos you wanted more makeup..?" He said a bit confused and Alex didn't even seem to hear. He opened his mouth and looked at us "I came here.. Because I didn't want to go home"
His voice was thin and it seemed like he had a hard time expressing himself. And then he started to cry. The situation really couldn't get any weirder. Or more awkward. Neither me or Damon knew what to say or do and Alex just stood with his back against the closed door, crying silently.
I finally got up and put my boxers on walking over to him and hugging him. I didn't know if it was the best thing to do or if I made things worse I just did what I thought was what I should do. He hugged me back and cried against my shoulder. I stroke his back holding him until he stopped crying. Damon got up as well and got dressed. When Alex stopped crying I led him to the bed letting him sit down and Damon went downstairs to make tea. That's what he said, but I figured he probably just didn't want to get emotional around Alex. Not that I minded. Damon would only complicate things.
I sat down in Alex's lap facing him and he put his arms around me. I kissed his tears away and he smiled softly leaning his head against my shoulder.
"If you wanna say anything, I'll listen" I said and he giggled. "You sound like a doctor" he whispered. "But I'm not I'm Graham"
he nodded and kissed my neck. I pulled away to look in his eyes and he grabbed my asscheeks spreading them to grind on me. It felt really good and he got the reaction he wanted when my cock hardened making the texture of my boxers tighten against it. "Ride me" he said, demanding.
"Alex.." I said but he didn't listen he just pulled down his pants and underwear holding my hips.
He lifted me up and looked in my eyes for confirmation. I looked at the door blushing. Damon would come back any time.
But I was really horny. Alex angled my head in his direction making me look in his eyes and lowered me on him slowly.

Alex's PoV

I didn't want to tell Graham about anything. I didn't want them to know me. So I did what I always did, I fooled him into sleeping with me.
In my defence he seemed to really enjoy it, even though he was very tense and worried that Damon would come back. I knew he wouldn't, Damon didn't want to get involved with my feelings. I had to step up my game, I had cried in front of the both of them I could never let that happen again. They would start to worry now and I would have to convince them that I was as shallow and emotionless as they first thought.
Almost all my makeup was smeared over Graham's shoulder and I probably looked horrible but Graham didn't mind. He was now moving up and down on me slowly, rhythmically. He felt really good and he really seemed to enjoy me.
I held him tight and whispered quietly  "I love you". He froze in his movements. "What?" He said his voice shaking. "I love you" I said and stroke his hair smiling.
He looked at me for a while "I like you too.." He whispered quietly and I grabbed his hips moving him on me. I moaned loudly against his shoulder and cried silently. I knew he didn't love me, but it still hurt in a way to have it confirmed.
"Alex?" Graham moaned. I nodded. "Are you crying?" He whispered it as to soothe me which only made everything worse. I didn't want him to pity me. I wanted him to love me. I wanted someone to love me. I shook my head no "only drooling over your hot body baby" I said trying to sound hot and cheeky. He giggled.
I grabbed his hips to finish us both off so I could get out of here and cry. I bucked my hips hard hitting his spot every time making him squeal and bless me with loving words before he came on my stomach and I came in his ass. That was it. No cuddles or love or anything. It was just.. Sex.
I pulled him off me and pulled my pants and boxers back up.
"I'd better get going.." I whispered in fear that my voice would break if I talked and then I walked out and home.
I think Graham tried to make me stay I didn't really listen. I also think Damon and his parents said goodbye. I hope I responded, I was quite sure I did but everything was quite a .. Blur.
Well home I got in my room as quick as I could trying to avoid my parents and then I cried. I cried a lot. Silently by myself. The only way I ever cried.

Authors note: Awright I wanted some depths and more .. Alex which isn't the point of this fix so it won't be a lot more of that I just hate having a character with literally no kind of feelings cx I dunno this is quite a shitty chapter overall but next will be more gramon I swear!! Love you all!! Hope you're all doing well!! <3 <3 thanks for reading