A last goodbye |Sonadow|

The Dance Of A New Truth

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In the golden mist of dawn, when the first rays of the sun caress the earth and the world awakens to a new day, the unsettling certainty of an uncertain destiny makes its way into my mind that only reminisces.

I find myself on the threshold of an unfathomable chapter, where the chains of obligation drag me towards a harsh scene. My thoughts swirl in a whirlwind of unbearable emotions, and in the certainty that my life will change drastically and negatively, I feel that hope fades with the last sigh of light as night falls.

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I had woken up early, and the sunrise was as beautiful as the first time I saw your eyes; the birds were singing, and the flowers were blooming; everything seemed so peaceful. I had woken up early because I couldn't contain the excitement of the big event we would have the next day. I won't lie; happiness consumed me inside; I imagined everything perfect, you with the ring and a suit that would look wonderful on you. I could feel your breath on me while your arms embraced me, and I did the same, gently stroking your head. It was one of those moments where you wouldn't want time to pass, where it would stay frozen to prevent it from ending. We were like that for about ten minutes, enjoying each other's company while cuddling. At that moment, the idea came to me to make breakfast for both of us. Trying not to disturb your sleep, I slowly moved you aside and got up to go to the kitchen.

Trying not to make too much noise, I began to organize everything to prepare your meal. My attempts not to wake you up were in vain because minutes later, you appeared in the kitchen rubbing your eyes; the sleep you had was evident. You hugged me from behind and kissed my cheek, causing my cheeks to turn a rosy hue.

After finishing, we sat together at the table; it didn't surprise me that you liked my dish; you loved my food, and I loved cooking for you. -Wow, Shad, you really outdid yourself today, huh?- Like every time I prepared something, there were always compliments. -Just this time?- I teased you as you used to do. You just furrowed your brow while smiling, pretending to be angry to continue with your meal. The day looked clear; now I know that if it looks that way, it's because something is going to happen. After finishing breakfast, you helped me clean up everything and took care of washing the dishes. For my part, I headed to our room to make the bed and tidy up the living room. We had everything prepared for tomorrow, so that day would be one of those days where you just stay in pajamas. We would take advantage of the time we had together to rest since, due to the wedding we would have tomorrow, we both took a vacation.

Later on, we decided to turn on the old valve radio that always accompanied us, and soon the soft and nostalgic murmur of old hits filled the room. The harmonies of those timeless songs evoked cherished memories, creating an atmosphere of warmth and comfort. Immersed in the gentle melody, we let ourselves be carried away by the rhythmic beat and swayed gracefully, as if we were in our private ballroom, where only the two of us existed. Each musical note seemed to color the air with romance and complicity, and amidst shared laughter and whispers, we danced to the music's rhythm, finding in each turn and each embrace a safe haven amidst the outside world. The delicate light in the room cast dancing shadows on the walls, and at that moment, time seemed to stand still to allow us to savor every second of that magical moment.

After a while, as the sky began to turn orange, we gathered together in the cozy living room, turning on the television to discover that they were transmitting a horror movie. With the cold atmosphere surrounding us, we settled under a soft and warm blanket, shielding ourselves from the wind creeping through the windows, and we cuddled each other tenderly, sharing the warmth of our bodies and the love that always accompanied us. It was endearing to watch your reactions of startles and exciting gestures to the scary scenes, provoking a soft and affectionate giggle from me that highlighted your charm. Intending to convey calmness, I gently took your hand seeking to offer you comfort and security amid the suspense and excitement triggered by the movie. At that moment, under the soft glow of the television, we found in our embrace a sense of warmth and protection, fused in a special bond of complicity and mutual love. It was a moment of shared intimacy that filled the atmosphere with love and tenderness, creating an unforgettable memory in the most cherished corner of our hearts.

Our moment was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell. We both sat down and looked at each other, as if communicating through our gaze. Who could it be? I got up from the couch and headed to the door. I opened it slowly to find a mailman, and not just any mailman, but one belonging to the military. Seeing him, I knew he couldn't bring anything good. I braced myself for the worst, hoping it wasn't what I imagined. -Mr. Shadow?- -Yes, it's me. What do you need- -I've come to deliver this.- He then pulled out a letter from his bag. I took it somewhat unsure and turned to look at you. I thanked the mailman and then closed the door; you looked at me confused. I sat on the couch near you and began to read the letter slowly. Why was life so unfair? You noticed my anguished and frustrated expression, so you immediately snatched the letter from me and started reading it quickly.

-Shit!- You stood up from the couch completely angry. You were one of those people who didn't get upset easily, and seeing you like that, upset, was not common at all, but you had every right to be. You were always the one who calmed my outbursts of anger, and now it was my turn, of course, first I had to calm myself down. Gently, I took your hand and led you to the couch, noticing your anxiety. However, what surprise me the most were your teary eyes, reflecting deep emotion. I approached slowly, feeling my heart rate accelerate, and enveloped you in a warm hug, trying to convey all the calmness and love that dwelled within me. As if each beat of my heart sought to calm yours, I gently took your head and pressed it against my chest in an attempt to reassure you, encouraging you to let your emotions flow while promising that I would protect you, no matter what.

Gradually we separated, and it pained me to see you in that state. However, as stated in the letter, one of us had to go headfirst into the battlefield. I couldn't imagine you back in such a hellish and dark place like war. -I'll go,- I let the words slip out of my mouth without much thought. -Are you crazy, Shadow?!- You responded totally defensively as your tears continued to fall.

This sparked one of those typical fights between couples where each wanted to sacrifice themselves for the other. -You could get seriously hurt,- I said seriously. It always angered me that you always thought of others before yourself. -And you too, idiot,- you replied, not as serious as I was. I didn't want this argument to escalate further, so I thought of changing the tone. -Do you think they could defeat the ultimate life form?- Honestly, joking at such a serious moment was immature on my part, but I wasn't surprised when you responded with the same humor. -And do you think they could defeat the fastest living thing?-We both laughed and together, we reached the same solution. We would both go.

The next day, both you and I were dead tired. We had stayed up all night just to have everything ready to go to the camp, including essential things like dyeing our hair back to that boring dark tone. At half past five, we set off for the train station. I couldn't help but think, and I still can't, that on that same day we would have gotten married, we would have been at the altar while the priest said, -You may now kiss the boyfriend.- It wasn't going to be a big event; finding guests became impossible for us, and finding a priest who would accept us equally was even more complicated. -Come on, Shad, put on a smile, finish this and we'll get married first thing in the morning,- you said as you touched my shoulder. How could you smile at a moment like this? I smiled slightly trying to follow your lead but couldn't help thinking about how unfair life could be.

Boarding the train, a wave of melancholy flooded my being, remembering the moment you closed the door behind you and sealed our lips in a kiss filled with farewell and longing. That day, meant to be perfect, the day we were supposed to unite our lives forever, faded into the darkness of the war that claimed us. As we sat together in the train seat, looking out the window transported me back to the memory of my first departure to the camp, but this time, the presence of your hand clasped in mine enriched the nostalgia with a mixture of bitterness and hopelessness. Two souls united by love, swept away by the whirlwind of duty towards an uncertain destiny in a conflict that threatened to take everything from us.

We arrived at the camp, and the horrible memories of past battles began to surface. I wanted to leave and be happy with you, and yet there we were standing in front of a place that would completely destroy us. Did destiny only want to tear us apart?

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