'heartache'- poetry

distraction

I made you my distraction

From the reality

Of all those missing from me

You became my safe space

The only person left willing to stay

You became the medication

Making me feel less lonely

I made myself believe

You'd be here forever

You'd work forever

But you one day went away

And I became reliant on your return

But until then I was stuck in space

Blaming everyone else for my mistakes

I made you my distraction

My powerful addiction

Shielding me from the face

That belonged to me

I really tried to make you my reality

But with each tear I thought I could bear

What lay beneath became clear

You were just a distraction

I used to try and kill off

Everything inside making me more aware

Of all the things that were hurting me

Of all the things reminding me of my painful reality

I made you something I couldn't live without

And with you gone my body suffers the heaviest drought