Never Let You Go : HEEJAKE

Chapter - 9

Jaeyun has no idea on how he woke up with a red mark on his neck ? the younger woke up late in the evening and when he did he saw the red mark while using the bathroom. he just tilted his head confusingly and touched the mark.

maybe a mosquito bite .. jaeyun thought to himself and shook his head before changing into a loose t shirt with a short because he usually workouts with his boyfriend at this time. After coming from their university in early afternoon the male was too sleepy and after being insisted by Heeseung he finally slept, now when he woke up it was nearly 5 in the evening.

"Knew it that you would be here " Jaeyun smiled as he closed the door behind and approached his boyfriend who was seating a bit while exercising. "I see you are awake " Heeseung spoke and smiled a little as he continued with his exercise. the couple had a vacant room at the house and because the gym was a bit far from their location they decided to use it as a gym room as it was big enough.

"I ate a little too much today " Jaeyun pouted and started his daily routine while looking at his boyfriend who frowned but still lowly chuckled " I didn't see you eating today ?" Heeseung spoke as he looked up at his boyfriend. "Okay stop looking at me, you are very attractive and it's distracting me " Jaeyun spoke with a laugh making Heeseung's eyes tremble a little.

"You gotta stop those little flirts " Heeseung spoke with a blank face but Jaeyun could swear he saw a hint of smile in the elder's eyes. "Admit it you like it " Jaeyun stuck his tongue out and teased his boyfriend childishly who smiled a little. "Stop it Jaeyun ah keep your focus there now "

"Alright" The younger pouted but still obeyed but suddenly realized something. "Oh wait how did your appointment went? " Jaeyun suddenly asked his boyfriend who sighed. "I did and I have to go every saturday from now on "

"I'll accompany you from now, I would have today too but you told me to sleep " Jaeyun complained to the elder who didn't looks at him, heeseung knew if he looked at those puppy eyes at the moment then he's gonna loose his control.

And the red mark on jaeyun's neck was the evidence of it.

Afternoon 3:45 pm

Heeseung opened the door of their house and closed it before entering it. He sighed as the conversation between the psychologist rang in his mind.

"Mr.lee I know this is really sensitive for you but I think you need some distraction from this " The male with bith glasses looked at heeseung who bite his lips and nodded a bit.

"We need to create some distraction for you cause your panic attacks are increasing and are getting more harmful I'm afraid this can cause some serious problem for your health" Heeseung could just sigh as he took in all the words said by the male.

"I recommend you to create beautiful memories of touches to erase and distract those painful memories. We often use this technique and it works for most people. Our brain can remember same incidents and forget the past once, if you rather fool your brain and make these touches memories for you then it can divert your mind from those traumas "

"I mean I can touch him tho but I get scared when he touches me" Heeseung clarified to which the other male just assured him.

"It's okay it happens, maybe you can talk to him about it? "

Heeseung sighed, now how do he tell hia boyfriend that he gets scared of his touches. To be honest Jaeyun doesn't even touch him it's always just a hug and now he has to say no to that too? Heeseung knows how much jaeyun loves hugs and telling him not to touch him is just really hard for him to do so.

But heeseung needs his boyfriend too, he wants to touch his boyfriend too. But he doesn't want it one sided. But if jaeyun touched him then he feels scared.

Heeseung took a deep breathe and opened the door of bedroom but to his surprise the younger was still asleep. He slowly approached the sleeping male and let out a small smile when he noticed his boyfriend wore his shirt.

The shirt hung over his shoulder leaving his collarbone and neck area fully exposed to which heeseung just gulped. After kissing that tempting collarbone that day heeseung can't control Himself, that day too when the two were having a intense session of kisses and bites heeseung thought there finally could be something more.

But it all shattered once Jaeyun kept his hands on his boyfriend's waist and kissed his neck heeseung flinched so hard and scared the younger. Jaeyun did understood and apologized for going too far leaving Heeseung in pure guilt

Why is he such a coward? Why can only he fulfil desires but not his boyfriend? The simple answer is heeseung. Heeseung needs to recover before he breaks his boyfriend. Even if he is understanding but that doesn't mean heeseung can keep on holding on his past and shatter his present and future.

And his present and future was Jaeyun

That's how a mark was formed on the younger's neck because heeseung wasn't able to hold back.

He isn't gonna hold back now...

Evening 7:39 pm

"I am not gonna come home if it's not something important dad " Jaeyun spoke in his emotionless voice as he talked to his father through the phone call.

"You need to be here on next Monday sim Jaeyun " The voice from other side spoke to which Jaeyun just chuckled.

"Yeah so you can give me another beating dad? " Jaeyun questioned and he smiled a little when he heard groans from the other side

"Don't be a brat and you recive those beatings because you deserve that kid "

"Do anything you want but with me, don't you dare touch or shout on Jaegyu or I won't think twice to reveal your secrets to the public. " Jaeyun replied and hung up the phone call not listening to anything further.

Jaegyu was his elder brother who suffered from lung cancer. He was receiving his treatment by the parents, Jaeyun warned his parents and told them to take care of his brother or he will reveal their secrets to the public. The parents were scared for it and agreed to their younger child cause they knew Jaeyun will actually do it.

Jaeyun is waiting for the right time, he will surely reveal everything after his brother is well. He is just waiting for the right timing. He already has many worries at the moment his boyfriend, his brother and he himself.