One of a Kind (Single Father Levi x Reader)

(A/N) - Ending Spoiler Warning

Hey guys, 

Just gonna vent real quick about the ending for AOT because I just finished it...

And I'm sad, but not because the series is over but because of Eren. 

Everyone has their own interpretation of the ending, and I quite liked it. It was very bitter, but also a bit sweet. I cried about 5 times lol. 

It's funny because the anime started out pretty violent and to me the plot was about killing giant naked men, but then the ending became so philosophical (to me at least). 

I remember not wanting to watch the series because the very first scene that I saw was a clip of Eren's mom getting ate by Dina (which is insanely ironic come to think of it). 

That particularly made me emotional because there was a time in my life where I was questioning "what is the point of life?", but I came to my decision that the purpose is just to enjoy it. Then with Armin saying that those small insignificant events in life is what its all about hit me so hard!

Now to speak on Eren's death. I think it was completely sad. I expected him to die, honestly, because what would they do with him if he succeeded 100% with the rumbling. Jail him? Probably kill him. Idk. 

Even though he explains things quite plainly when talking to Armin, I don't think it's as "plain" as he stated.   

I think what made me really sad was seeing when they were children and that they had such an innocent goal, to see the sea and spend time with each other. And I remember being completely excited for them to see the other side (before I knew what was really out there) and it turned into a complete massacre and a nightmare instead. 

I don't think there would be any real positive ending to AOT, because I believe Eldia would've been attacked/slaughtered/sterilized regardless if Eren pursued "his ambition" or not. And just as it was shown in the credits, wars still happened. 

Another philosophical aspect was the nature of humankind. Is war inevitable? I think so. 

Which is what made me feel like Eren's death was for nothing. I would've preferred him to not be a badass, a villain and instead be that short-tempered kid with pure ambition. I would've liked to see more funny moments with him, Mikasa and Armin (and everyone else for that matter). - But again, this is me taking his death to heart because I really enjoyed how the series started and finished. There would be no AOT if it was happy from start to finish.

There's so much to unpack, but these are my immediate thoughts.

 I don't really know how to explain it, but his death hits hard. Apart of me wanted Eren to be saved, but once Mikasa entered the Attack Titan's mouth I knew his fate was sealed. I also find decapitation to be terribly disturbing, so when all that was left of him was his head I think that added to my disturbance/sadness. When Armin saw Mikasa holding Eren's head too!! UGH, my heart (ALSO LEVI DECAPITATING ZEKE?!?! THEN THEY JUST WENT ON LIKE IT DIDNT HAPPEN OMG- My jaw DROPPED! That man made a joke and all!!)...

But yeah, point is... I wanna give Eren a hug. I wish his fate was different (but then it wouldn't be AOT right).

Also, I'm very happy Levi lived. That is keeping me sane lmfao. Because I saw speculations (before S4 finished) that he dies, but thank GOD that was a lie. 

Anyways, feel free to share your thoughts (unless you're one of those ending haters). 

Okay I feel a bit better after getting that out. 

Thank you for reading my vent <3

Might delete later so I forget that he ever died! k bye!