In the blink of an eye, two whole weeks go by. Every day I find it harder and harder to contain my feelings for Ahra. Just like in high school, when it comes down to telling her how I feel, I chicken out. Partly because I'm just not ready to find out what happens if I tell her and partly because I feel like I'm not good enough for her.
Think about it, she comes from this wealthy, well off family and I come from a middle class family with nothing to offer. She would benefit nothing from me, and that's if her parents even allow it. And here I am, speaking as if Ahra likes me back. She might be attracted to me, but liking me is a stretch. Ahra is beautiful and kind and I don't deserve someone like her, so I will keep quiet.
"Sunghoon, are you listening to a thing I've said?" Ahra asks and I slightly shake my head. She lets out a sigh.
"Ok, as I was saying..." Our work day goes on. Ahra has adjusted well to her job and I think so far she's an amazing boss. One thing that I used to like but now hate, however, is how friendly she is with her employees. Employees being Sim Jaeyun, or as she calls him "Jake".
"How was the meeting, Ms. Song? Was it as insufferable as you thought it'd be?" Jaeyun asks with a flirty smile.
"You know what, yes. Thank gosh it's over." Ahra says, smiling back at him. My hands ball up into fists at the otherwise harmless exchange. I don't care if their talking about the best way to catch a fucking fish, I don't want her smiling at any man like that except for me.
"Well, yes, it is over now so you can rest easy. And, look at the bright side, it could have been worse." Jaeyun says and I block out the rest of the conversation until I'm fed up.
"Ok, Jaeyun, Ms. Song has work to do, papers to fill out. You can go on your lunch break now. Goodbye." I say, trying my best not to sound as angry as I am. I grab Ahra's hand and drag her into her office.
"Sunghoon, what-" Ahra says, confused as I sit her down in her office chair, standing over her.
"He's wasting your time." Is all I say. It's the truth.
"It's not your choice whether I get to waste my time or not, and it certainly is not your choice who I waste my time with." Ahra says. Gosh, when will she see.
"Well I'm choosing to keep you on track, you'll thank me later." I say and walk over to the door without letting her answer.
"Mr. Park." Ahra says but I just stare at the wall, not answering her.
"Sunghoon." Ahra says, her tone becoming more reprimanding.
"Yes." I say, letting out a sigh. I turn to look at her, expecting an angry face only to find a concerned one.
"You know you can talk to me if something is bothering you, right? We may have a relationship built on business, but I consider you my friend, Sunghoon. I hope you feel the same, and I hope you would confide in me instead of lashing out." Ahra says, making me feel 10 times worse than I did before. I hate that I lash out every time my feelings are too strong and I can't vocalize them.
I really wish I could tell you, Ahra. I really do.
"Sorry. I'm fine now but I should not have done that." I say and she shows a slight smile, her eyes glinting with hope.
"Good, now, I have a few letters left to read and then we can go home and finish the book. The place we left on has had me dying all day, I need to know what happens next." Ahra say, her smile growing wider as she talks about something she's passionate about. Ughh, I love how happy she gets over reading, it's adorable.
"Yeah, same, I've been thinking about it all day." I say, reciprocating the smile. Honestly, I've been thinking about her all day, but she doesn't need to know. 🙂
Ahra's P.O.V
Sunghoon and I are reading right now and after a day of anticipation on the book, all I can focus on is Sunghoon's soothing voice as he reads and his lay back outfit that would only be seen in the house. I kind of like the idea that outside, on duty, he wears a tux but when it's just us two at home, only I get to see him is this. It's like I get to experience a side of Sunghoon that not many people do. Sunghoon suddenly goes quiet, the silence pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Why'd you stop?" I ask, my lips forming a slight pout.
"It's your turn to read. Have you been paying attention?" He asks, an amused smile playing on his lips. Why does he have to be so hot all the time.
"Sorry, I spaced out thinking about work, can you start the last chapter over please." I ask and he chuckles while playfully shaking his head.
"Yeah, but actually pay attention this time." He says. He just got hotter. Is that even possible? I need to stop thissssss. This is my bodyguard who probably has no interest in me romantically.
Sometimes I think of telling him about my feelings. I wonder what might happen, the different possibilities. I've honestly been close to it a couple of times but the beating of my heart becomes too intense and I stop before I burst, or at least that's what it feels like. It might honestly be for the better that I don't tell him how I feel, it may complicate things and I like what we are now. Good old friends.
"I'm getting tired, I think I'm gonna head to bed." I say, standing up from the bean bag. Sunghoon does the same, looking at me with curiosity.
"Mhm, I guess today was a long day, huh?" Sunghoon asks and I nod.
"Well, good night Ahra. Sweet dreams." He says and my heart drops to the ground. Sweet dreams. Who knew two words could alter my brain chemistry. It is times like this where I just want to spill my guts out and tell him how I feel. All he said was 'good night, sweet dreams'.
"O-oh. Um, good night Sunghoon. S-sweet .. dreams for you too." I say, flashing a quick smile before I leave the library, booking it to my room. Omg, sometimes I ask myself how I survive living with this man. I am suddenly startled by a knock on my bedroom door.
"Come in." I say. Please, don't act a fool right now Ahra.
"Um, are you ok? You kind of left in a rush." Sunghoon asks and I let out a sigh.
"Yup, all good." I say, thinking he'll leave but he walks closer to me, causing me to back up. I suddenly hit my bed, falling down into a sitting position on my bed while Sunghoon towers over me.
"You know I can tell when you lie, Ahra." Sunghoon says, his voice going down a couple octaves. Goodness
"Oh yeah?" Is all I can get out, trying not to sound as affected by his presence as I am right now.
"Mhm, your eyes look everywhere but mine. You have this nervous looking half smile and your eyebrows string together." He says as I look up at him. Is it just me or is it hot in here??
"Are you always this observant or are you just obsessed with me." I say. WHAT?! Where. The. Fuck. did that come from. Where did I get the confidence to say something that bold?
"Both." Sunghoon says, shrugging his shoulders. "Now, go to bed, you little liar." He says, an attractive smirk on his face as he walks out of my room, leaving me stunned. wtf? Um, so now how am I supposed to sleep at all after that just happened? I already think about him more than I should, that did not helppp. Well, I guess I will have sweet dreams now.
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This is a little filler chapter b/c I'm currently really busy with school. Sorry for my late uploads, also currently in a writing slump. I will try my best to upload on time, thank you for putting up with me 🙏 love you guys <33
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Fanfiction~19 year old Song Ahra is the daughter of a very wealthy CEO and is soon about to inherit half of the company and the fortune that comes with it. Along with the wealth, danger follows the high position. In order to protect Ahra, her father hires a b...
