Chapter 9

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Larisa

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Larisa

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I needed time. Time is the only thing that's given me an opportunity in life. Time. The faster it goes the more I won't have to live in this dark world anymore.

I left that morning after taking an Uber home. I didn't look back because I knew if I did, my desires would overtake my dignity. I wanted Adam but he was right, he would only drag me down and I can't be chasing a married man, no matter how much I craved for him. Deep down I always knew that I wanted a fairytale. To feel like someone or something will take me out of the prison I live in.

The blockage between me and my freedom has only increased in its barrier. I want Adam, but he's not available to have. It hurts my heart but I know deep down we both feel something for each other. Time can only heal me now.

Even though a part of me feels like it will always be him.

I brush my hair down and put on a white long armed top that's cropped. I decide to settle for some black jeans and grab my school bag that's hooked onto my shoulder. Home has been tense because mom and John have been fighting all night.

I know he's been sleeping on the couch but I didn't want to pry. In all honesty, I have a feeling of discomfort every time I think about running into him. Mom didn't like that I always lock myself in my room but I didn't care. If she wants me to be a prisoner, i'll be one.

I shut my door on the way out and make my way downstairs, only to run into the one I didn't wanna see. "Good morning", John says and purposely blocks my route at the end of the stairs.

Theres nothing good about this morning after seeing his face. I grow annoyed and shove past him, running towards the door.

"Get your ass straight home Larisa!", Mom says whilst sitting at the dining table. I roll my eyes before exiting and heading towards my car. Anger fills my nerves but I try and remain calm as I grip onto the wheel and back out of the drive.

To have control is one thing, but not being able to provide for yourself is another. I want to finish school and not be known as the girl who ran away. I'm not good with peer pressure of random people sticking their nose in my business.

I move in silence and that's exactly how I want it to remain.

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School has been dragging a bit more than usual today. I can't find myself concentrating in lessons because everything around me is starting to feel numb. My emotions have drained every feeling inside me.

"Hey what's with you today", Val says as we sit on the outdoor benches. She takes a bite of her lunch which consists of a sandwich. "Nothing i'm just tired", I say whilst rubbing my eyes slightly. I haven't had enough energy to apply my usual make up. Just a light touch to make me look less dead. My eyes drift to a outdoor bench from afar. It's like wherever I go, I can feel Adam's absence and it causes my heart to ache.

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