The Fallen Stars

Chapter 19 María

                     She is awake.
                   
                        -Damião

I smirk at the small piece of parchment in my hand.

She's awake.

What fantastic news.

"Good news?" Connor asks, unsure.
"Very." I answer, I turn around to look at him. We're in my room. It's 3 o'clock in the morning. He's standing against the wall right next to my bed, I was standing in front of my desk. He has his black outfit on. His shirt isn't buttoned up up completely. It is buttoned up just above his stomach.

"She's awake."
"Who? The sister of Ainsley?" He asks.
"Yes. She's going to stay with Damião for three weeks." I explain.
My smile is getting wider.
"I shouldn't be surprised that you already have a plan brewing." He says, shaking his head, at himself.
I smile.
"You really should start expecting that I have a plan. With anything and everything." I say mischievously. I turn back to my desk.

"Oh?" He asks.
"Mmhhmm." I hum.
And all of a sudden, his hands are on the desk, locking me. His breath by my ear.
"So you have a plan for this?" He asks, tauntingly.
I stay calm, but my heart is beating fast.
"Do you need something, Connor?" I ask, playing around the subject.
"Yes." He breathes in my shoulder.
"I need you to see that I... have a strong liking towards you." He says instead.
"Well, I like you two, Connor." I say, grabbing a piece of paper to seem busy.

He grabs my shoulders and turns me to look at him.
He still holds my shoulders.
"Stronger than friends. I think I am in -" I inturupt him with my finger to his mouth. He looks at me confused.
"You know you can't say that to me, I'll kill you." I say angrely.
"Death is better than you not knowing how I feel." He says hopelessly.
His whole demeanor looks weak.
"Why?" I ask, unsure of what else to say.
"Because you are so strong... yet fragile inside. You're bloody tough but kind in your smile." He explains on further, but I stopped listening.

He's my first mate.

My best friend.

Why can't he be my lover?

And so I grab his face and kiss him passionately. He grabs my waist. He tastes like rum and smells like the ocean.
I hear the fire crackling from the fireplace.

                                ***
   
I wake up out of breath. I look around my room. There is no one. It was just a dream.
"That was a bloody awful dream!" I say to myself.
"What the hell was I doing kissing my firstmate?" I ask myself.
My dream was wrong... why can't he be my lover?
Because I'm the queen, I'm the most powerful. He can't have power over me.
And I don't need anyone.

And so, he'll stay a firstmate.
And nothing more.

I get out of bed, and I go straight to my wardrobe and then my bath.
I picked a white dress that goes longer at the back and shorter in front. The short side ends just below my knees.
And the long side ends at my ankles.
With black boots and a full sized black corset. With my black hat.

I soke in the water for a while, then I decided to get out.

I got work to do.

I got dressed, and I walked back to my room, I grabbed my favorite necklace, which was a silver chain and a black snake, and a matiching snake ring. With a red diamond eye.

I leave my room.
I follow my path through the maze of tunnels.
I walk through the town quickly... and I reached the ships.
The sails are pulled up, and the gangplank is out.
I walk up on the dark wooden plank to my dark brown ship.
Even though we don't sail anymore, the crew stays on the ship. They sleep and work here.
They do go into town, but that is it.