On my Island (Kara x Reader)

3. You and Kara

Y/n pov

I roll my shoulders tiredly as i step into the L-Corp elevator together with eight other people. It's already nine pm and i'm really wondering why they're all still here. Maybe they're all like Lena.

My hand nestled in between it and my neck, trying to remove the tension stuck in it. But it never works, not when it's my own hand at least. Kara always manages to get just the right enough strength to make it better.

As i get to the office floor, i'm not the only one trying to get off. And as the man beside me pushes past to get out instead of waiting the second it takes for me, it jolts enough pain through my right shoulder that i drop the bag of Thai from Lena's favourite place on the floor. He doesn't even look back, not even as i had released a wince.

"Y/n, are you okay?" The familiar voice of Jess, Lena's assistant, reaches my ears as she comes up to me from her desk.

"Yeah, i'm fine Jess." I answer, but she's already found her way up to me and help me pick up the bag i'd dropped. "Thanks." Taking the bag from her, i make sure to use my left.

"You sure you're okay?" She asks again and i realise that my face had been stuck in that wince. I school my expression before i answer.

"Yes." I nod with a smile. "Is she in there?"

"She's waiting for you." And i head past Jess and into Lena's office. Finding her as usually in her chair behind her desk. The view behind her is always as breathtaking as the last time, even under the night sky outside. I brush off every feeling i was feeling outside before she can look up.

"I have arrived." I say with my usual dramatic flare as i come up to her desk.

"Yes you have, and sorry that it's so late. You're a good friend." She smiles at me, tired as usual. And it hurts me. I don't like seeing my friends exhausted, which is why i'm always here to make them happier. And maybe take a sleep schedule seriously.

"I brought food from your favourite restaurant Thai Delights, i'm your best friend." I smile as i place down the bag in front of her. Her smiles changes and i feel a tug in my head at the sight. Beautiful.

"Indeed you are." She says and we both head over to the little couch and table to eat. "Now, what did you get us."

And i begin to unpack as i tell her what i bought. "We have spring rolls, Tom Yum soup. Some Pad Thai with chicken for you and then some Green Curry with beef for me. And some steamed jasmine rice, which i got extra of." She laughs, as we always managed to have food left, except for rice. "The some mango sticky rice for desert. And i got you some water with lemon, ew, and i got thai iced tea."

"Says the one who ordered Green Curry with beef, lemon water is delicious." Lena smiles as she puts her red and white stripy straw in her drink. As i do with mine.

"Fine, we'll agree to disagree on food orders." I laugh as we both begin to dig into the food in front of us.

After some time, i take to word as i feel so calm in my entire body. "I've missed this." Just the two of us hanging out, at a time when dinner should already have gotten eaten but we don't care.

"Me too." She leans back and places her hands on her stomach. I lean back as well, but bring the spring rolls with me as i continue to eat. "How are you not full?"

"I bought the food, i'm gonna eat the food." And she laughs at my words. But it's how i was raised, you don't throw out food. Even though i am more than enough financially stable now than my family was when i was kid, it's something that has stuck in my head.

And we sit there in silence a few more minutes before she takes the word again. "Can i ask you a question?"

"Sure." I turn to her as i drink the last of my iced tea.

"You slept on Kara last night." She says and i stop chewing in the middle of a bite and look at her.

"We're friends, i often sleep at her place." I shrug and swallow the last of the rolls. And even dare to admit out loud to Lena, and only Lena. "And Kara is ridiculously comfortable to lay on."

She laughs as she looks down, as if embarrassed. "Why is that?"

"That i sleep at hers or that she's a comfortable pillow?" I take her hand in mine, forcing her to look up at me. That's something that's left in her head from childhood.

"Both i guess."

"Ever since the accident i've... or rather Kara, has suggested it's closer to hers from the hospital and that it'd be easier if i slept at hers. My house is quite a distance from the hospital, from the city." She has guilt in her eyes. Even though we're all aware of how the surgery she perfected saved my life. Or at least made it better than it ever could have been after the crash. "Otherwise i live in my brothers pre-paid apartment while working."

"And you've never... you and Kara?" Her question is hesitant.

"No, we... we're friends, that's all."

"You know she really likes you, we all can tell." Lena says and it brings me sorrow to be reminded of what i'm putting Kara through, all for the sake of not risking the hurt on my heart again.

"I know, it's just that i don't date. She knows that." And i still remember the look on her face when i had said that during a game night. But it still never changed the way she treated me, the way she looked at me. And my heart ached every time.

"Yeah, i've been meaning to ask. Why don't you date?"

"My relationships have a tendency to end badly." I shrug and she looks at me, her straw stuck to her lip as she waits for me to continue. "They cheat, most of them at least."

"Kara would never..." She begins to defend her but i stop her.

"I know she wouldn't." She's too gold hearted to do such a thing. "But i'm taking a break from dating ever since my then-boyfriend cheated on me while i was in the hospital after the accident. Focusing more on myself."

"But..." I cut her off once more to change the subject.

"Change of subject, tell me about your day." And so she begins to tell me, not questioning why i don't want to talk about it. But that doesn't mean i can stop thinking about it. Thinking about Kara. Or more specifically, me and Kara.

There's just something between us that is more than friendship. I know it, she knows it, and it's hard to ignore. But my heart can't risk the damage. And i know that with Kara, it would be beyond repair if something happened.