love as it comes.

26

It was in the afternoon Ceasar called his father asking if the kids ate , he was surprised that Carl was on duty but proud.

Elina woke up Ceasar walked in the room " morning " , " Afternoon " , " after....why is it quiet? Where are the kids? " , " they're with Carl then they'll be spending the night at the pack house " , she got up looking at the watch.

" it's 3 , 1 and..." , Ceasar pulled her to sit down , " Lucky , Lunia , Luca , Luther, Lucian , Lupitor , Lupton and Crystal " , " you named them? " , " yes and I've already registered them ".

" do they like the names? " , " yes " she sighed fiddling with her fingers , " the kids know you're sick , Lucky tried to heal you but I found out you had not healed in years.

You had not taken off your anklet or the bracelet I put on you,  I am assuming the ring too.

I took the anklet off " he took off the bracelet and ring massaging her arms.

" you're on bed rest for 3 days,  you will do nothing but sleep , eat and heal.

The kids are okay , all we need is for you to be okay too.

Though we both will miss they first day of school , Carl seems to be handling them well " , " can I see them? " , " yes they will come visit " , " no I mean now " he lifted her up walking out of the house to the park.

He watched as her kids played with others,  she smiled , Lupton spotted them and smiled waving at them , all the others did the same.

Crystal ran to them " why did you bring her out? She will be cold " , " she wanted to see you all " , " she's seen us go back in " , " Crystal " , " mommy you're not allowed out of the bed " , " okay then bye but come see me after school tomorrow " , " yes " Ceasar walked back home and placed her back on the bed.

" pizza? " , " yes please " he got in bed and sat next to her , " you will be here ? " , " yes I need the rest to " , " okay " , " why? You don't want me here? " , " no no no its just you seemed like you hated me " , " I am still mad at you yes but I can never hate you " he put some pillows behind her letting her rest.

" can I s..." , " no , 3 days , you and me and one hour visit of the kids each day " she just nodded.

He laid next to her " bath or shower? " , " bath " , " wine? " She nodded , " okay I'll get a glass for you " , " and you? " , " I am trying to go clean " , " then y..." , " you're drinking,  it will help you relax " .

They both went quiet " where you really gonna get married? " , " I was going to pass out as soon as the ceremony started " , " but you still went? " , " I just wanted to see Elia's face to keep a memory of you.

Since you know we didn't have any pictures of you around " , " Ceasar " , " do you want to have sex? " , " what? " , that came out wrong , what I meant was we need to have sex so you can heal " he explained.

" okay? " , " just okay? " , " Ceasar " , " yes " , " we don't have to be awkward " , " do you love me? " , " yes , I love you " , " I don't even believe that anymore you're like a stranger I don't know how to act " , " Ceasar " , " I want to have sex with you so you can heal for our children,  to have sex not love but I've never done that before I don't kn...".

" you're hurting me " Ceasar kept quiet closing his eyes,  " I am sorry I left , I had to , I wasn't strong enough to protect them or you they would've died and I would've followed.

It was hard for me to , 8 times harder , I had to teach myself how to give birth and make sure the delivery was okay.

I had to feed them all alone , I am sorry you missed all that but please understand if I had a choice , I would've chosen having you with me but if you were with me , Scott and Elia would've taken over.

This was a trial we needed to all endure one worse than the other.

You had time alone to go through everything, this is the first time in years I can finally sit , cry and go through the hurt,  I've been surviving all these years and I am only now starting to feel like I am breathing,  I am living.

If our daughter had not begged us to come back today , I would've died sooner.

You're hurting me,  I understand I've hurt you but please give me a second to breath don't push me further , I have suffered long enough.

Please don't hurt me Ceasar,  please I am tired " for the first time Ceasar watched Elina fall apart and cry he hugged her.

They were both broken , Elina more than him but he wanted to save them , save his family.

He wanted to be happy once more. He vowed to never let Elina feel so unloved ever again.