H0ETALE$

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I woke up in the middle of the night to my phone vibrating.

Looking at the clock, I read 2:37 AM.

I sighed in relief at the fact I still had a few hours to sleep.

I opened my phone seeing the notification that Antonio had texted me on Instagram.

I pressed the notification which brought me straight to his DM.

The text read "Wassup."

I replied typing back a "hello." and hitting the send button.

As I waited for a reply, I clicked on his page.

Viewing his page, Antonio was actually really fine.

He had braces and dimples and a couple of tattoos on his arms and neck.

I really had a thing for dark-skinned guys but I wouldn't have minded giving him a chance because he was actually really cute.

But I wasn't looking for a boyfriend anytime soon.

Especially not after what I had gone through with Zyaire.

A few minutes went by and he replied with "you coming to school today?"

I went back to his dm and looked over the message.

I just replied to the message with a thumbs up emoji because I was way too tired to reply or type anything out.

I turned my phone back off, laid on my side and drifted back to sleep.

I woke up to my alarm going off like always.

I quickly got up from the bed, and made my way into my bathroom.

I removed my clothes and got into the shower and closed my eyes as the water sprinkled all over my body.

All I could think about in that moment was the trip from two months ago.

I just couldn't believe anything about it.

Lately, that had been all I would think about, I couldn't get it out of my head no matter what I did.

I just couldn't believe I had really lost my virginity to someone who had tormented me and bullied me for years who genuinely gave no fucks about me.

The worst part about it was that I knew he hadn't care in the moment when it was all happening, but I was still willing to give myself up to him because I desperately wanted him.

One minute it would feel like I was finally getting over it, the next minute I was balling my eyes out about it like I was doing right now.

I kept my eyes shut as tears and water droplets fell down my face as I cried in the shower.

I just really wished I could go back in time and do things a lot differently.

I turned off the shower, stepped out and reached over grabbing my towel off of the sink counter.

I wrapped the towel around my body and began to dry myself as I looked in the mirror at myself.

I was loving the version of myself that I was starting to become.

This new Morgan didn't take shit from anyone and wasn't going to get walked all over and I loved that for me.

After getting dressed, and applying some makeup, I touched up my hair then headed back into my room.

"You ain't coming down for breakfast?" My grandma stood at the edge of my door.

Things had been awkward and we hadn't spoke since we argued the morning before.