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MORGAN

The phone buzzed in my hand, the vibration sending a jolt of anxiety through me as I sat on the rug in the middle of my room.

I'd already called Journey three times, each attempt met with silence.

I really needed to talk to her right now, about everything.

A wave of despair washed over me as I dialed the number again. Journey was the one person who had always been there for me, the one person who didn't judge and who'd always been there for me.

I was so dearly sorry for what I had done to her and deeply regretted it, but there was no taking it back.

As crazy as it may seem, other than grandma she felt like a parent at some times.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I waited for the phone to connect. I thought of the day when me and Drew were caught having sex.

Journey looked like she hated me with all her guts that day. It seemed like nothing would ever be the same after that day. The look of betrayal in her eyes just told me everything.

On the third ring, the phone was answered. There was a moment of silence, then a soft intake of breath. I knew Journey had answered.

"Journey," I choked out, my voice barely a whisper. "Umm.... this is Morgan."

There was another three second pause, then a deep sigh. "I know." Journey replied.

My heart began to pound in my chest, I wondered if she hated me. I needed to tell her everything. Like right now. About how sorry I was about what I'd done, about the possibility of me being pregnant, about Grandma... everything.

I knew she'd probably be disappointed in me after everything was said and done.

"I-I'm so sorry Jour. For everything... I never meant to hurt you like I did. I wish I would have just walked away the first time Drew had threw himself at me. I never wanted to hurt you, you're my cousin... and I know I made a really huge mistake and I understand if you hate me because I really wish I could go back to that day and undo it all if I could but I really need your help right now." I began to sob.

A long silence followed. I could hear Journey's breathing, slow and steady. Finally, Journey spoke.

"Morgan, I don't hate you. I could never hate you." She cleared her throat.  "Although what you did was really fucked up, I understand that you're still young and everyone makes mistakes.  And the whole situation... it really just opened my eyes. It helped me realize that Drew wasn't the right guy for me and I'm thankful that it happened and we didn't get married." Journey explained.

Relief washed over me, I'd been so afraid of Journey's reaction and what'd she possibly say to me.

"I'm so sorry. I hate myself for what I did to you. You're the best cousin anyone could ask for." I replied, my voice still choked with emotion.

"Don't. Don't hate yourself for it Morg. Just learn from your mistakes and do better." Journey replied.

"But.... there's something else.." I trailed off.